Jan 20, 2005 19:41
Ok so I have been getting my ass too work on focusing my life on me. Finding a stable place to live, a better job, and focusing on my own sanity.
I tolked to David today, and yeah, I almost scared him out of a relationship. I told him about my whole phobia of people dying, and how I smother people because I want to get the same feeling from them as I did from my mom. I promiesed him that I would prove to him that a relationship can be a good fun and healthy thing, and that even though I can't get over this fear over night, I wont project it onto him anymore. or Heather, or Liv, or Jess, or anyone.
I talked with Tim and Rebekah, and Heidi, and the assured me that no matter what they looked at me as family. And that they will alway be there for me. I mean the are a totally str8 couple with kids and a mother that lives here, and I feel totally comfortable being who I am here. Im gay, and it isnt wvwn an issue to any extreme with them. If they only kept up their apt it would be home.
Anyway, I am off to finish trying to find an apt.
ttyl.
~Lu'cas~