Dreams...
I had a stream of dreams last night that were all interconnected. It started off with David, Heather, Jess, Liv, Tim, Rebekah, and I going to the zoo and buying a pet Tiger. But while we were in the back of a truck with the Tiger, it went crazy. we threw out of the back, and it kept trying to jump back in and I had to protect David. So we outran it and some wolves, got to some cabins and the guys went to one cabin and the girls went to another. I was laying on a bed, and Tim was in a shower, so David and I made love. But ehn for some reason alot of animals, like skunks, kept getting into our room. And it went from animal dream to we were at camp and some radio station was giving us money, and I had to buy cigarettes. Thats all I remember.
Ok so I woke up like at 1 today. It was weird to hear from Andrew and Adrian yesterday. Andrew still hates me and Adrian needs my help with getting money from one of our mutual friends. And I still haven't talked to David. I hope to talk to him today. But after realizing that i have gotten uncomfortably close to him trying to fill in the void of my mothers death, I am giving him space.
I don't need to always be texting him, or wondering where he is or what he's doing. Its called trust. If we are going to have a long and healthy relationship, we need to trust each other and give each other space. He already trusts me and ives me space, so I need to do the same for him.
He reminds me alot of Adrian, not the abusive asshole part, but the strive for independence part. So if he wants independence, I need to give him it. I don't mean ending our relationship, but I mean giving him alot of space. I don't want to run another one away.
I miss Heather too. I haven't spoken to her in forever, and everytime I try, she is doing something with Blayke. I need to sneak onto one of their dates with them lol.
ok everyone... I am gonna go relax some more. I will ttyl.
~Lu'cas~
Ok so I woke up like at 1 today. It was weird to hear from Andrew and Adrian yesterday. Andrew still hates me and Adrian needs my help with getting money from one of our mutual friends. And I still haven't talked to David. I hope to talk to him today. But after realizing that i have gotten uncomfortably close to him trying to fill in the void of my mothers death, I am giving him space.
I don't need to always be texting him, or wondering where he is or what he's doing. Its called trust. If we are going to have a long and healthy relationship, we need to trust each other and give each other space. He already trusts me and ives me space, so I need to do the same for him.
He reminds me alot of Adrian, not the abusive asshole part, but the strive for independence part. So if he wants independence, I need to give him it. I don't mean ending our relationship, but I mean giving him alot of space. I don't want to run another one away.
I miss Heather too. I haven't spoken to her in forever, and everytime I try, she is doing something with Blayke. I need to sneak onto one of their dates with them lol.
ok everyone... I am gonna go relax some more. I will ttyl.
~Lu'cas~