*Sigh*
I screwed up big time. Erica found out about me and dusty. I feel so horrible about it, I know she will never forgive me. I don't even know why I did it, or why it happened. It just happened and now I regret it more than ever. April felt the need to finally tell erica 2 months later. So erica is going through alot considering she just found out that her fiancee cheated on her with someone she thought was her friend and the fact that almost everyone knew about it, even her sister, and no one said anything. All I know is that I'm scared for my life. What sucks is that she blames it ALL on me, Dusty was the one who started it.
When it happened it was just a total blur. I'm a little angry with april for not warning me first. I was sitting at erica's fricken house watching her kids when april decided to tell erica at the grocery store. So when I got the phone call from april telling me she will meet me at my house and erica was crying in the background, I knew. I felt all these emotions anger, sadness, fear, confused, anxious, but mostly I felt relieved. The secret was finally out, but now I have to deal with the consequences. I was actually doing fine with my life, I was somewhat happy. Now it just all went downhill. Since it happened I haven't really eaten anything and I sit in my room all day sleeping or thinking. I keep thinking maybe if I hadn't screwed up with school, that's where I would be right now and none of this would have happened. I don't really know what to do now b/c I don't wanna be here at all. I just keep screwing things up for myself. I wish I could turn back time. I miss my friends in marquette, they always make things better.
When it happened it was just a total blur. I'm a little angry with april for not warning me first. I was sitting at erica's fricken house watching her kids when april decided to tell erica at the grocery store. So when I got the phone call from april telling me she will meet me at my house and erica was crying in the background, I knew. I felt all these emotions anger, sadness, fear, confused, anxious, but mostly I felt relieved. The secret was finally out, but now I have to deal with the consequences. I was actually doing fine with my life, I was somewhat happy. Now it just all went downhill. Since it happened I haven't really eaten anything and I sit in my room all day sleeping or thinking. I keep thinking maybe if I hadn't screwed up with school, that's where I would be right now and none of this would have happened. I don't really know what to do now b/c I don't wanna be here at all. I just keep screwing things up for myself. I wish I could turn back time. I miss my friends in marquette, they always make things better.