and another...
always everything will level out. that is why i am here. not possible to live and live in chaos. existence would no longer be. without balance.
i don'r long for the days that were, like so many other people. i long for the days that could have been. the change that will never happen. the circumstances never met.
i am alone when i am without. i can't be who i have decided, only who i have become.
i miss the clairty. blinded by desires, the music turned up and the curtains drawn down.
***
Been spending alot of time with Sarah. I was under the impression that she had changed and left me behind. But that was never the case. A fight we were both too stubborn to forget. i can never express how fortunate I am that our lives are still somehow along the same lines.
Lost my job at Montana's. A mistake. One that I will always regret, but I had my chance. Just not meant for that place.
I am working at Kerby's Koney in Great Lakes.
Start tomorrow. I am nervous, and excited. I think I may do very well there.
Thought for a moment, everything came crashing down. But like I said, the balance always works out. Have very few debts to pay. Soon it will be time to start working up. Every week I will put $10 in a bank account. And every year add $5. By the time I am 50. I will have money, so I will not have to worry about social security.
Now, all I have to do is work for myself, than maybe I can help Chris fall in love with me again.
i don'r long for the days that were, like so many other people. i long for the days that could have been. the change that will never happen. the circumstances never met.
i am alone when i am without. i can't be who i have decided, only who i have become.
i miss the clairty. blinded by desires, the music turned up and the curtains drawn down.
***
Been spending alot of time with Sarah. I was under the impression that she had changed and left me behind. But that was never the case. A fight we were both too stubborn to forget. i can never express how fortunate I am that our lives are still somehow along the same lines.
Lost my job at Montana's. A mistake. One that I will always regret, but I had my chance. Just not meant for that place.
I am working at Kerby's Koney in Great Lakes.
Start tomorrow. I am nervous, and excited. I think I may do very well there.
Thought for a moment, everything came crashing down. But like I said, the balance always works out. Have very few debts to pay. Soon it will be time to start working up. Every week I will put $10 in a bank account. And every year add $5. By the time I am 50. I will have money, so I will not have to worry about social security.
Now, all I have to do is work for myself, than maybe I can help Chris fall in love with me again.