what to do what to do
So That Person popped up in the BSG icon comm again tonight, slapping me in the face with her stupid default icon--ah, I see she's edited it to a different icon now. Because my wound is still at that newly scabby phase where you can't stop picking at it, I clicked on her userinfo, which she's updated since last week to state, "And oh yeah, I'm dating a fabulous guy as can be seen in the above icon - timfromcali. :)" So. Suspicions are confirmed. Though, as expected, I've still heard nothing from the man himself.
I'm seriously tempted to leave her a comment raging at her and/or warning her off, but I realize there would be absolutely no point. Why would she believe me over Tim, when Tim is so charming and able to convince a person she's the only one on the face of the planet he's at all interested in? Besides, who ever believes the bitter, angry, heart-broken ex? I strongly doubt that Tim presented our relationship--if he presented it at all--as being active when they started up. Why would he? So any commenting on my part would be only for my own personal satisfaction, and in the end I doubt that I would find it at all satisfying or helpful.
You know what I would find satisfying and helpful? A phone call or an email from the asshat himself, with even the slightest attempt at an explanation or apology or anything at all. Though I do realize that my continued use of the term "asshat" and general raging is probably not providing incentive for him to contact me, even if he is still reading my LJ, which, again, I strongly doubt.
This blows. I hate having this much anger and resentment and hurt and all this other crap flowing around in me. I feel like that sludge thing that killed Tasha Yar--like the good bits of me sloughed the crap bits off and left the system, leaving me as this scudge of negativity seething here alone.
On that note, I do not believe I've ever written myself a better "I'm going to go take a bath" exit line.
I'm going to try to end with something positive. Here is a picture of my sister at age 2. She is very cute, and I miss her horribly.
I'm seriously tempted to leave her a comment raging at her and/or warning her off, but I realize there would be absolutely no point. Why would she believe me over Tim, when Tim is so charming and able to convince a person she's the only one on the face of the planet he's at all interested in? Besides, who ever believes the bitter, angry, heart-broken ex? I strongly doubt that Tim presented our relationship--if he presented it at all--as being active when they started up. Why would he? So any commenting on my part would be only for my own personal satisfaction, and in the end I doubt that I would find it at all satisfying or helpful.
You know what I would find satisfying and helpful? A phone call or an email from the asshat himself, with even the slightest attempt at an explanation or apology or anything at all. Though I do realize that my continued use of the term "asshat" and general raging is probably not providing incentive for him to contact me, even if he is still reading my LJ, which, again, I strongly doubt.
This blows. I hate having this much anger and resentment and hurt and all this other crap flowing around in me. I feel like that sludge thing that killed Tasha Yar--like the good bits of me sloughed the crap bits off and left the system, leaving me as this scudge of negativity seething here alone.
On that note, I do not believe I've ever written myself a better "I'm going to go take a bath" exit line.
I'm going to try to end with something positive. Here is a picture of my sister at age 2. She is very cute, and I miss her horribly.