how dirty girls get clean
pure random thought-age
last night: cowboyyys. yay! that was fun I danced and danced until I think my feet fell off.
OUCH!
I just scratched my under eye too hard.
anyway, tonight: more liver abuse.
tomorrow: laundry day booooo. and at night? well.. I think it's going to go down in history.
growing up sucks in many ways. I mean, I'm holdin my own but it still BLOWS not being able to be a crazy irresponsible teenager anymore. Granted I'm a crazy drunk, but being a teenager was wayy more fun.
I wish I could fly. That'd rock.
blehh bad food bad sex bad t.v. interviews
lost
party party party work work sleep eat party party eat work sleep sleep (huh?)
why the fuck was I the bad one?? I never even did anything wrong. of course that's the biggest lie humanity has ever heard. youre a freak show just like me except the only difference is that i can lay out in the open and admit the real me. who i am what i've done and what i've become. i'm not scared of myself.
i am spending one day for my birthday (it may not be on my bday) completely, totally, utterly ALONE. out of this city, possibly out of this state. just me, my car, and the road. i know exactly where I'm going.
true loneliness doesn't come from being alone.
oh, alone time out of this city..
swear to god I've never felt so alive.