Motivation is Zero

[hisaya_him3ko]

I have a self-intro due tomorrow in Japanese that I need to rewrite and I am not in the mood to do it. To be honest, I really have to try harder this term. All the people who have gone to Japan under any case or circumstance has the edge in this class. I feel like I'm struggling in a subject that I'm usually good in and people remind me that it's a four hundred level class, but I don't want level to have anything to do with my ability. It feels like when I lost my edge with mathematics and that was pretty heart-breaking. I've always been good in math and then I just somehow accepted that I was no longer good with it. I don't think I can accept it if I begin to believe that I can't do well in this class. At the moment, I so wish I was in Chinese class. You know... if this term turns out to be tougher than ever, I may quit Japanese after this term after all. Though... I'd like to stick for at least one more term, I may not. In order to graduate on time and with 225 credits while handling an internship during the summer, I have to plan accordinly now. No dawdling and definitely cannot be unmotivated. ... I need a fluff class. Someone recommend a fluff class =.= Maybe... I should take a music class =.= as long as I can get an A+ in it of course. *sighs* I want to take a Tai Chi class next term. I need to relieve all this stress somehow and LOSE WEIGHT. All this sitting from this term sucks. I know it's productive sitting (how can I study while walking or running?), but it's making me totally FAT.

*sighs* I love this song T___T, it's like totally opposite of me right now. (Takacha Lyrics). I want a carefree life T____T.