{Fic} Someday for Somebody Final Chapter
Title : Someday for Somebody Final Chapter
Pairing : AkaKame
Rating : Angst? Sad? I don’t know…
*NOTES : Promise me when you reach the lyric part, please read it line by line and then watch the video so you can feel the love I’m trying to tell you here… I’m not really good with words, Sorry!!!! This is my present for my dear hubby - KAMENASHI KAZUYA! Happy Birthday dear! Aishiteru yo!
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Jin stared at the two persons who keep joking with each other. Both of them look happy and relax. He couldn’t help himself from feeling jealous looking at how close Maru and Kame are. He notices that since the morning, Kame keeps avoiding him. He doesn’t even look at him at all. All Kat-tun members are preparing themselves for the concert. Today is the last day of the QoP concert. Since it will be recorded into DVD, they must do their very best and no mistake is allowed. While waiting for the concert to begin, all of them try to calm their nerves by various ways- Taguchi keeps playing his Playstation, while Koki keeps bugging him and made him lose, Ueda keeps punching the air (as if there is a sandbag there!), and Kame and Maru keeps teasing each other which makes Jin who has been staring at them for the whole time feels like he want to grab Kame away and lock themselves in the closest empty room so he can only have Kame for himself alone! He keeps wondering whether Kame really loves him or not. Judging by the face he’s showing, it looks like Jin means nothing to the younger man. Frustrated with his own thought, he slowly headed towards the toilet. He needs to get away from the scenes that he’s seeing from the early morning or else he will create a tragic scene in any moment.
With his back lying against the wall, he pulls out his cigarette and lights it up. While inhaling the smoke, his mind keeps repeating Kame’s words from last night. Is it really over between us now? Do you really love me? Or it’s all just a lie? How comes you seems so happy with him while I’m the one whom you love? Does that kiss mean anything to you? He let out a sighed. Suddenly the door opened and the person who keeps bugging his mind shown up. Kame seems shocked when he notice Jin is there and looking directly at him. The moment their eyes met, he quickly turns around and wanted to walk away from there but Jin’s voice stop him.
“Why are you avoiding me?”
Slowly, Kame turns to face Jin. For the first time in this day, he looks at the man he loves with his whole heart.
“Because I’ve decide to let you go.”
“What? What do you mean? I don’t understand.”
“You asked me to stay away from you before, remember? I couldn’t do it at that instant because I still want you to be mine. But now I realize that it’s useless. I can’t force someone who hate me to be mine. Forgive me for my rudeness but if you want me to let go, I need to stay away from you. Or else, I’m afraid that I’ll keep bothering you even more with my stupid act.”
With those words, Kame walked away leaving the stumbled Jin there. Just a few steps from the exit, he saw Maru lying by the wall and looking directly at him. He flashed him a weak smile and just when he was walking pass him, Maru speak out.
“Is this what you really want? Is it okay to let go after the whole things now?”
“I..I don’t think I can hold on any longer. I’m tired of chasing after something that’s not mine. He doesn’t love me anymore… All there is for him now is hatred. It’s the best for both of us if I let him go.”
“You’ve changed for him, all because of him. You said that he’s reason for everything you have been dreaming for in life, remember? Why don’t you fight for your love?”
“Because it’s only a crazy love. A love that is only belongs to me, but not for him. I’m a huge mistake to him…. Hmm… But at least I have you now. Right? Promise that you will always be by my side, Oniisan?”
“Hai…Ototo! I’ve promise you before that I’ll be your brother forever, right? Even if the whole world despises you, I’ll protect you. It’s my responsibility and my promise as a brother.”
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Since the beginning of the concert, Jin keeps looking at Kame whenever he has a chance. Kame’s words keep playing in his head over and over again. His mind telling him that Kame belongs with Maru but he cannot stop his heart for wanting to have Kame again. but what about Pi? He already promise himself that he will take care of Pi forever. He doesn’t even know which one to choose, his own heart or his friendship. So he tries to distract himself by fooling around on the stage. Luckily, the trick works until their final break. When he walk off the stage, he saw Pi was there smiling at him.
They only have 15 minutes break. At the moment they came off the stage, Pi quickly grabbed Jin’s arm and lead him to a secluded area away from the rest of the group members.
“Jin, I think Kame love you!”
“I know…”
“What? So why the hell did you guys still avoiding each other?”
“I..I don’t deserve him, Pi. I’m not by his side the moment he need me the most. I left him…”
“Are you kidding me? I don’t know how on earth did your brain functioning. Both of you keep hurting each other with your own stupidity! Why do I always get stuck with an idiots???!”
“It’s over between us…”
Pi can see the dark cloud in his best friend eyes.
“ He don’t belong to me Pi. He has Maru now.”
“You’re wrong!”
Both Pi and Jin was shocked when suddenly Maru’s voice was heard. They turn their head to see Maru standing behind them.
“Is that why you’re acting coldly towards him? You think we’re in love? Gosh! You guys are idiots! You were here thinking he’s with me and he’s there thinking you hate him by all of your heart.”
“But…But I thought you love him. I see how you treat him, Maru. There’s no one to be fool here. ”
“That’s why I say you’re an idiot! Yes, I do love him and he loves me too but only as a brother. The day I knew what has happen between the three of you, I’ve promise him that I’ll protect him as my little brother forever. The only person he loves was YOU!”
Jin froze. He didn’t know what to do. He can’t really think right now.
“I…I..can’t…”
“Is it because of me,Jin?”
“What? No, Pi. It got nothing to do with you.”
“You not very good at lying, you know?”
“I’m fine Jin. Yes, you’ve promise me that you will take care of me forever. But you still can take care of me as a friend. I don’t ask you to destroy your love life for our friendship, Jin. Do you think I’ll be happy if my best friend is miserable because of me?”
“Really? You really don’t mine if I want to have Kazu back?”
Yamapi smile and nodded.
“Thanks Pi! I…I’m going to find Kazu right now to tell him how I truly feel. And Maru,I’ll take care of him from now on.”
Jin runs to their dressing room with hope in his eyes. He needs to tell Kazu that he need him. They have waste too much time for the unreasonable misunderstanding. Moreover, they have hurt each other by that stupidity. Jin rush into the dressing room but he can’t find Kame in there. When he sees Kame, they already have been asked to go up to the stage again. He quickly shouts Kame’s name and the said person turn his head to face him.
“I…I don’t want you to let go! I never did. I didn’t mean it when I say those words last time.”
Kame stumbled! But he gently smiles to Jin.
“You’re such a great guy, Jin. You don’t have to force yourself to forgive me. I know how awful I was to you before. Don’t feel burden by my words for you before. I realize that my love for you only just a crazy love. I don’t put my hope in your loving me back. ..*sighed* ….We still can work as group mate, right? So, just forget everything and let’s do our best in this concert together, okay?”
Jin knows that Kame get the wrong idea of what he has said. He doesn’t even give him a single chance to explain back. He really loves Kazuya with all his heart. It’s not a sympathy or sorry. But Kame already walked up to the stage. They’ll be singing Crazy Love after this. You’re right,Kazu. It is a crazy love…
His heart wrench thinking that Kazu misunderstood that he doesn’t love him anymore. He feels his chest filled with a heavy feeling. By carrying those feeling, he raise up his mic and start singing.
Tada Kimi dake o Kowashi sou data
(It’s just seems like I was about to break you)
Nani mo Nakute Aishisugita
(Because of nothing,I just love you too much)
Maybe we’re falling in the Crazy Love…
The whole Tokyo Dome can hear Jin’s broken heart through his singing. From his voice everyone can tell he’s holding a heavy feeling in his heart.
Moshi Ano toki ni Oikakeretara
(If I had chased after you at that time)
Donna Mirai de Hanikanda?… Egao mireta no darou…
(What kind of future will we have? Maybe we would have been smiling)
Kame’s heart clenched. If only I chased after you before you leave, maybe you will still be mine now, Jin…
Kimi no subete o yurushite
(I forgive you for everything)
Dakishime nureta ano yoru
(The night we embraced damply)
Tears start threatening to fall from Kazu’s eyes. Will you forgive me Jin?
Namida no omosa sae mo hakarezu
(We can’t even measure the weight of our tears)
Futari yureta
(We simply swayed)
We’ve cry too much aren’t we, Kazu? Just because of a simple misunderstood, we’ve hurt ourselves so much until now.
Kimi no namae yobu dake de….Sekai ga mitasareteita…
(By just calling out your name…The world become complete)
Donna kako Kimi no Kizu o Subete ore no naka de mamoritakatta
(No matter what your past are…I want to heal all your wound for you)
Moshi mo koe ga todoitara… Ore wa koko de matte iru yo
(If my voices reach you…I’ll be waiting here)
Hitori ja kie so na ai da kara… Nido to nai kono Crazy Love
(Because when I’m alone it seems like the love could vanish…This Crazy love that won’t happen again)
Both of them couldn’t suppress their emotion anymore. The pain in their heart was controlling them now. It’s clearly shown how hurt they are by just looking at them.
Hitogomi ni magire aruiteta…Tsumetai michi de mayotteta…
(I walked along caught up in the crowd….I become lost on the cold road)
Onaji me o shite ita kimi to…Nani mo nakatta keredo…
(I have the same eyes as you…but there was nothing..)
Sonna kokoro de KAKERA o….
(That fragment of my heart..)
Futari de mochi yori…attatameta..
(It become warmer when we both held it…)
Kazu’s couldn’t continue his singing anymore when tears starts to flow from his eyes. The hand that was holding the mic fall to his side and his body was shaking by trying to control his crying. He really couldn’t stop his crying. The harder he tries, the louder it get.
You are my warmth, Jin… I need you… I need you by my side…I’m just lying to myself when I says that I’m willing to let you go.. the fact is I never did…and I never could…
Suddenly, a pair of arms wrapped his body from behind. He knows the warmth of the embrace… the warmth that he has miss the most… It was Jin… Jin’s lips was so close to his ear. He can hear Jin’s voice singing slowly and sweetly direct to his ear,
“Sore dake de….”
That’s all it took…
“Kimi to onaji yume o mite… Ima ga tsuzuku to omottetta..”
I had the same dream as you did….I thought they would continue now…
“Donna USO Kimi no himitsu… Subete shinjite tada mamoritakkatta”
Whatever your lies and secret are…I just want to believe you and care for you…
“Moshi mo toki ga tomaru nara….Ore wa zutto matteiru yo..”
If time were to stop….I’ll always be waiting….
“Futari no kie so na yakusoku wa… Omoide no naka Crazy Love…”
The oath we both made that seems about to disappear…it’s a crazy love in my memory
“Nido to nai kono Crazy Love…..”
This crazy love that won’t happen again….
Kazu turns around to meet Jin’s eyes.
“I love you,Kazu… I always do…”
Jin wipe aways the tears from Kazu’s cheek and continue his word,
“I’m all yours….. Always have, always will…”
That’s all it takes to takes all the pain away from Kazuya’s heart. He sinks his face in Jin’s broad chest and surrender into the embrace. They let all the tears flow out from their eyes. This time, it’s different. It’s not tears of pain… Its tears of joy…. The tears of loves that they’ve been holding in their heart….The whole Tokyo Dome are filled with cheering and applause for the couples.
“I thought you hate me..”
“I try… I really try… but I still love you no matter how hard I try… No matter what I do to you, I still can’t resist my feeling for you… I thought you already find you true love with Maru… That’s why I try to distance myself from you…”
“Maru? With me? But Maru is like a brother to me…”
“I know that now… That’s why I’m taking you back. I won’t let you go ever again, Kazu…Never…”
Jin pulls out from the hug a bit so that he can see his lover face and says,
“I want it back!”
Kazu stumbled.
“Want what?”
“The kiss that you have stole last night.”
It can clearly see that Kazu is blushing with those words.
“I thought you’re sleeping…”
“It’s not an excuse to kiss people in their sleep, you know…”
Kazu smile and give a quick peck on Jin’s cheeks.
“I believe that’s not the kiss you’ve stole from me last night.”
Kazu don’t even get to register those words in his mind when Jin suddenly lean over him and kiss him fully on the lips. The kiss was soft at first but then it turns more demanding filled with hurt, loves, miss and many others emotions. Both of them forgot their surroundings. They were in their own world now- the world that contain only both of them and their loves for each other. When they pull apart, Jin can see Kazu’s face has turn as red as tomato!
“Why are you blushing so much?”
“No I’m not!”
“Yes you are!”
“erm…It’s…It’s my second kiss…”
“What? So last night was you first?”
Kazu nodded… Jin smile grew wider.
“So I just mark you officially as mine!”
Once again he pulls Kazu closer and lean his lips on Kazu’s lips.
The rest of Kat-tun members just look at them with a smile on their faces. This is the supposed ending for all of their pain. They deserved to be happy with each other. Maru turns his look and search for Yamapi faces on the VVIP area. As soon as he saw Yamapi was looking at him too, he smiles. Both of them smile at each other and nodded their head signaling that they glad that everything goes well with those two.
After breaking the kiss, Jin touches the tip of Kazu’s nose with his own. By staring at those pretty eyes, he whisper,
“Kazuya Kamenashi, I love you with all my heart. I promise that I’ll never going to leave you again. Will you be mine, forever?”
Kazu smile and give Jin a quick kiss before answering.
“Always have…….always will……...”
“I’m always yours…and always will be yours, Jin”
I love you too, Akanishi Jin….
………The End…..
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