Nine Weeks
It's only been a day and I already miss my brother terribly. How am I going to survive nine weeks without him? In the past, he was in a bad relationship where I rarely saw him the duration of two years. But then he spent the entire summer with all of us and boom...he up and left again. Only this time it's a positive influence in his life and it'll be good for him.
My being proud of him is holding my sadness at bay...for now. But sometimes I get really sad (like right now). I keep blinking back tears and trying not to cry, but I can't do that forever. It's only nine weeks, but it seems like an eternity right now. :( All I can do is sit here and wait for time to pass so I can see him. We always fought growing up, but I think that was our way of bonding. (Crazy way of showing we care about each other, I know. Hah.)
Well, I think I'm going to use writing as a distraction from all of this. I'll just pour everything into that so I don't think about him not being here. I know that as soon as my niece or nephew asks me where he is or when they get to see him, I'll cry. Hell, if they ask my mom or sisters, they'll probably cry. I wonder how my sister-in-law is doing...I told her that I'd keep my phone on if she needs me for anything. Well, I think I've rambled on about this enough. >.< For now at least...I hope to have an update or something posted soon.
-Chrissy
My being proud of him is holding my sadness at bay...for now. But sometimes I get really sad (like right now). I keep blinking back tears and trying not to cry, but I can't do that forever. It's only nine weeks, but it seems like an eternity right now. :( All I can do is sit here and wait for time to pass so I can see him. We always fought growing up, but I think that was our way of bonding. (Crazy way of showing we care about each other, I know. Hah.)
Well, I think I'm going to use writing as a distraction from all of this. I'll just pour everything into that so I don't think about him not being here. I know that as soon as my niece or nephew asks me where he is or when they get to see him, I'll cry. Hell, if they ask my mom or sisters, they'll probably cry. I wonder how my sister-in-law is doing...I told her that I'd keep my phone on if she needs me for anything. Well, I think I've rambled on about this enough. >.< For now at least...I hope to have an update or something posted soon.
-Chrissy