Hi, i'm back for a bit
Hi
Thought i'd blog since i have fifteen minutes to kill before i meet jerald.
I havent updated in so long. i blame my contentment with the way things are. blogs are more for my discontented moments. i use this space to vent. expressly or not. sometimes when i talk about my day it's because i don't feel like talking to people. i'd rather hide a feeling under typed words. makes me feel better. today i do blog for no reason though. just an update.
I turn 23 soon. I never thought id turn 23 so fast. I remember when my sister turned twenty and thinking about how old she had become. my sister is getting married in 6 months now, time passes so fast.
I am graduating in 3 months. i'm not going to be in school anymore where the biggest mistake you can make is to fail an exam. i like school a lot. i dont like the stories i hear about having to sleep your way to the top. they used to just be stories, now it's really in your face.
I have an issue with growing up. we once did a poll in class about how well we thought we knew ourselves. i remember my rating was higher than the average person, meaning that i thought i knew myself fairly well. i think i overestimated. over the past year i discovered things about relationships and people that woke me up from my naive and sheltered world. i feel older now. everything i believed about myself changed so easily. I used to think i was an independent girlfriend. I used to believe so strongly in the idea of my own space. now i see jerald everyday and i love the fact that i do.
I think... who we are is not so much about our talents, or our status, or our backgrounds. it's more about who we decide to be. today, i have decided that i am a 23 year old who is growing up. i have ambitions and plans, and i will succeed in the future. i am kind, i am generous, and i love my friends. thats who i have decided to be. and i will turn out this way.
Anyway, im late to meet jerald. ill continue this another time.
Thought i'd blog since i have fifteen minutes to kill before i meet jerald.
I havent updated in so long. i blame my contentment with the way things are. blogs are more for my discontented moments. i use this space to vent. expressly or not. sometimes when i talk about my day it's because i don't feel like talking to people. i'd rather hide a feeling under typed words. makes me feel better. today i do blog for no reason though. just an update.
I turn 23 soon. I never thought id turn 23 so fast. I remember when my sister turned twenty and thinking about how old she had become. my sister is getting married in 6 months now, time passes so fast.
I am graduating in 3 months. i'm not going to be in school anymore where the biggest mistake you can make is to fail an exam. i like school a lot. i dont like the stories i hear about having to sleep your way to the top. they used to just be stories, now it's really in your face.
I have an issue with growing up. we once did a poll in class about how well we thought we knew ourselves. i remember my rating was higher than the average person, meaning that i thought i knew myself fairly well. i think i overestimated. over the past year i discovered things about relationships and people that woke me up from my naive and sheltered world. i feel older now. everything i believed about myself changed so easily. I used to think i was an independent girlfriend. I used to believe so strongly in the idea of my own space. now i see jerald everyday and i love the fact that i do.
I think... who we are is not so much about our talents, or our status, or our backgrounds. it's more about who we decide to be. today, i have decided that i am a 23 year old who is growing up. i have ambitions and plans, and i will succeed in the future. i am kind, i am generous, and i love my friends. thats who i have decided to be. and i will turn out this way.
Anyway, im late to meet jerald. ill continue this another time.