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i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bored. i am in one of those go out and do something moods...and everyone that i have talked to has some sort of excuse as to why they have to stay in tonight. I can not wait untill i have a job, and school to focus my mind on. I am such a bum right now! i need to do something productive...not just sit at my computer and vedge. I think i should stop drinking sooo much coffee...i am definetly addicted, i am a zombie in the morning before i have a cup, and I always end up drinking at least 5 cups a day...holy caffein overload! UMMM this weekend better be very very fun. I want something exciting to happen...i want some romance or something nice like that...or an adventure would be nice. god i am SO bored with life right now. EVERYTHING IS NOT EXCITING ENOUGH....i need a tranquilizer...or a hobby...i should start painting again, i soo should..but i am soo unmotivated. when did i become this lazy fuck, who can not move from her computer?...i wish i was a stoner, then at least i would have some sort of excuse for this shit. Oh, well there is some slight excitment in my life..the cops were at my hosue yesterday afternoon...that was spectacular, comming home to see a patrol car in front of your house...some trouble with my brother i guess...my family is so fucked..my brother is going into a foster care house type thing...it's so sad. i don't know what to do. i don't know what to do about anything...maybe i'll just smoke all this pot that i have and be comatose...comatose but audible UGH...the only thing that is going right right now, is my boy situation...it is not perfect, but definetly not wrong. things are nice and casual, and hot haha ....i want to meet more people though, just to keep my mind off this certain boy. I can not let myself like him too much, that would just be tragic and stuff...no love for me..soooo not ready for that shit. SCHOOL STARTS SOOON...NIGHT CLASSES, UGH...WORK! the idea of school work sounds good to me right now, YES, i am that bored with life. FUCK.