HELL
So this morning I was after spending a pretty good but not great morning with my boyfriend.. i turned on my phone... a message from my father.. I knew something was wrong.. his joyous tone was gone... I calle dhim back.... his brother died. My Uncle.... FUCK... he called me liek 2 weeks ago maybe sooner and I never returned... thougth about it Thursday was actually going to return the call this weeked... well I waited too long... I have been a wreck all day.. and well my b oyfriend left 10 minutes after i found out.. he is spending the weekend with his sister and mom taht had been the plan all wekk. i didnt expect himt o change that but im a wreck and need a friend... i dont have many out here and well i dont want to discuss it with my father.. who pretends and says he's fien but my friends... he baked PB cookies today... i dotn think he's ever made cookeis in his life and tehy tunre dout well though they had too much salt... anyway he's not OK... and i know that though i woudl never ask him abotu it.. hes too proud.. and plus im so far away.. fuckign a... i just want a hug i want family... i called my fav cousin today and she coudl barely talk.. understandable her fatehr had just dropped dead out of nowhere... my aunt is hysterical and noone knows when the funeral is.. not that i can afford to go... i really want to just pack up my car go get my brotehr and drivwe..... taht would be ideal but we dont have the money.. oh and i got a new job a dream job.. but qwho cares?????? at the moment i dont... i would go back and spell check this but fuck that... atleast i have truffle... please guys.... if someone you love caLLS YOU... take the 5 minutes and call them back.. PLEASE you migth never get another chance.....