Friends, Life, and bad skills of self expression
i feel like a prostitute to the livejournal. i am becoming too aware that people read them and i feel as though i am writing to please others, which isn't all that bad being that every known writer since the beginning of time wrote to be heard. but i personally think of Live JOurnral as more intimate? or a way of answer questions that nobody will ask you. my fingers aren't at home on the keyboard tonight, i feel my typing is drunken. its very frustrating.
i do have manythings to say tonight. i got decent grades today but unlike all my lucky bastard friends i have Sister heck and some missing assignments in philospohy so thats to easy A's out the window... nutsack.
denny i never speak to you. its good that you post often.
i'd like to say i find a particular girl attractive tonight but i cant think of one.. maybe later
i had great fun at the last Tylerparyt and am getting much better at being drunken. very excited to get with the whole gang soon. last weekend i got blown off by rian and didn't do much. i was talking to chosh today, by chosh i mean josh... and i was like, "i wish i hung out with a girl who was cool" and josh pretty much hates them right now so we got all sinical and shit. it was great. yes... this is very meaningless post.
go to met-art.com. if you have already been let me know... greatstuff, very beautiful.
the poncho was stolen this weaken... rest in peace my friend, you will be remember. i will always lack the warmth you gave me.
and may terrible retribute fall upon he who took you away. i am moving on so easily though it is kind of surprising, i mean i really loved that coat but i think i realize that it is only a piece of clothing. thats not to say i didn't love it very much. i think it had more to do with how people saw me than how i saw myself...
i'd like to cook and to do many fun things. when ever i image this though it turns into sort of a date. i think it would be great to have a trusty babe/pal to have fun with, i mean theres a lot of life out their to be experienced and its much better with a companion. plus if i cooked only for myself i'd be a fatass in no time. fooooodd... delicious.
i think that i grew up a lot in sweden and i am finding lots of new things out there that i want a piece of. i really have become interested in martial arts, dancing, clothes (yes no more hippie jeans day after day) and anything creative. music is amazing playing it is just that much more fulfilling. traveling is very thereputic, i often wish that erika had ended it before i left instead of the first day of school. this summer would have been an amazing way to learn from what we had and become some sort of friends. oh well. traveling is lovely and if i can i am definately leaving this summer too. again traveling is another thing made better by a companion. riann take me shopping there's a whole world out there to try on. i sound really gay.
i really want to party! and were the fuck is nicole? i miss her! i keep wanting to call her up and just be like "hey wanna kick it?" which i have never done before.
back to the experiencing life thing i'd like to do some beading and to build and paint some wood furniture, good projects for the next break from school.
i've decided against fighting matt. it would amount to nothing more than questions from people i dont like. and more importantly, it's just not who i am, i am too mixed up right now to do something so definately stupid. as far as my ego i think he would be a waste and don't want to get in trouble with the school.
i had tea earlier and i have been sipping at the empty cup at least ten times, why would i do this?
i love movies. i am very easily brought into the cinematic world. i get so wrapped up in the life of the characters. this is nice though because its much better to feel like you're living it rather than watching it when it costs you money.
riann, anna, remember halloween last year. that was one of the best times of my life. same thing with homecoming, of which we didn't go. fuck yeah my fellow badass, missfit sophmores! i so emotional/ nostalgic right now. its nice feeling.
not much to say tonight, one thing that made me happy today was refering to erika as "her" (evil... satanic... HER) one thing that angers me is lack of courage in todays girl. for example my friend was given a phone number from a guy she really liked but because she didn't want to seem desperate she wouldn't dream of actually calling him. ladies, we aren't like you. we give you a number in hopes that you might call it, not to play crazy mind games. jesus! oh well courtship is hot, so i guess its a catch 22. just like ever thing else in this beautiful contradiction that is life.
about Erika i don't hate her i just enjoy not desiring her so much so such things as "HER" are good for me right now.
to say something that makes sense,
i truly do love my friends.
kyle.
i do have manythings to say tonight. i got decent grades today but unlike all my lucky bastard friends i have Sister heck and some missing assignments in philospohy so thats to easy A's out the window... nutsack.
denny i never speak to you. its good that you post often.
i'd like to say i find a particular girl attractive tonight but i cant think of one.. maybe later
i had great fun at the last Tylerparyt and am getting much better at being drunken. very excited to get with the whole gang soon. last weekend i got blown off by rian and didn't do much. i was talking to chosh today, by chosh i mean josh... and i was like, "i wish i hung out with a girl who was cool" and josh pretty much hates them right now so we got all sinical and shit. it was great. yes... this is very meaningless post.
go to met-art.com. if you have already been let me know... greatstuff, very beautiful.
the poncho was stolen this weaken... rest in peace my friend, you will be remember. i will always lack the warmth you gave me.
and may terrible retribute fall upon he who took you away. i am moving on so easily though it is kind of surprising, i mean i really loved that coat but i think i realize that it is only a piece of clothing. thats not to say i didn't love it very much. i think it had more to do with how people saw me than how i saw myself...
i'd like to cook and to do many fun things. when ever i image this though it turns into sort of a date. i think it would be great to have a trusty babe/pal to have fun with, i mean theres a lot of life out their to be experienced and its much better with a companion. plus if i cooked only for myself i'd be a fatass in no time. fooooodd... delicious.
i think that i grew up a lot in sweden and i am finding lots of new things out there that i want a piece of. i really have become interested in martial arts, dancing, clothes (yes no more hippie jeans day after day) and anything creative. music is amazing playing it is just that much more fulfilling. traveling is very thereputic, i often wish that erika had ended it before i left instead of the first day of school. this summer would have been an amazing way to learn from what we had and become some sort of friends. oh well. traveling is lovely and if i can i am definately leaving this summer too. again traveling is another thing made better by a companion. riann take me shopping there's a whole world out there to try on. i sound really gay.
i really want to party! and were the fuck is nicole? i miss her! i keep wanting to call her up and just be like "hey wanna kick it?" which i have never done before.
back to the experiencing life thing i'd like to do some beading and to build and paint some wood furniture, good projects for the next break from school.
i've decided against fighting matt. it would amount to nothing more than questions from people i dont like. and more importantly, it's just not who i am, i am too mixed up right now to do something so definately stupid. as far as my ego i think he would be a waste and don't want to get in trouble with the school.
i had tea earlier and i have been sipping at the empty cup at least ten times, why would i do this?
i love movies. i am very easily brought into the cinematic world. i get so wrapped up in the life of the characters. this is nice though because its much better to feel like you're living it rather than watching it when it costs you money.
riann, anna, remember halloween last year. that was one of the best times of my life. same thing with homecoming, of which we didn't go. fuck yeah my fellow badass, missfit sophmores! i so emotional/ nostalgic right now. its nice feeling.
not much to say tonight, one thing that made me happy today was refering to erika as "her" (evil... satanic... HER) one thing that angers me is lack of courage in todays girl. for example my friend was given a phone number from a guy she really liked but because she didn't want to seem desperate she wouldn't dream of actually calling him. ladies, we aren't like you. we give you a number in hopes that you might call it, not to play crazy mind games. jesus! oh well courtship is hot, so i guess its a catch 22. just like ever thing else in this beautiful contradiction that is life.
about Erika i don't hate her i just enjoy not desiring her so much so such things as "HER" are good for me right now.
to say something that makes sense,
i truly do love my friends.
kyle.