why does it sem like im the only one that does wrong?
I wish that for one instance I could grow balls for my self and that when I want to say what I feel I need to that it comes out.. and that I dont back down or say "Im sorry" Fighting with him makes me crazy. Lately shit has been on a up and down rollercoaster and some how I cant get off this ride. I want to be back in someone elses arms but that problem is that his image is burned into my brain like hot wax molds to a cold surface. He makes me feel up, and then when he makes me upset its always " you get like this when you're drinking" and "what the hell is your problem? You always say, "nothing" or "nevermind" which is partly true.. the only thing that is not is when I am drinking, I always feel like that and only bring it up when im drinking bc thats the only time I have balls enough to confront him. THe bad part is even when he hurts me , he still manages to say all the right things to make me stay longer.