Seriously?
That subject line was not meant to reference Gray's/Grey's Anatomy. While I enjoy the show, that's not what I'm about. I'm about The Office apparently. Because at this moment, I feel the need to finish out my hangman game (TWoP forum) before I leave this place. Seriously. I posted a clue and really only one person is guessing right now, but it's almost guessed and I just want to be done and leave knowing it's finished. Yup. I AM A LOSER.
Well, actually, I hope not. Because tonight's TRIVIA NIGHT and I better not be a loser. I must be a winner. I wonder if Asian Persuasion will continue "flirting" with me this week. I am not sure how I feel about that. Okay, here's how I feel:
1. Flattered - not just because he MIGHT be flirting, but also really - this is pathetic - I don't mind that these younger girls around me are seeing that I get flirted with. Because no matter how hard I try, I can't get over that I'm at least 4 years older than all of the people I am hanging out with. I feel kind of loserish.
2. Embarrassed - that's a no-brainer. I get supremely embarrassed if someone is flirting with me in front of my friends. Especially since those friends will make fun of me.
3. Unconvinced - really, I'm not quite sure that he's actually flirting. For real, I've been seriously fooled before. I remember thinking someone liked me and then I found out he was engaged. Yes, I've had "taken" guys flirt with me, but this wasn't how I was thinking. I really just thought the guy liked me and was trying to muster up the nerve to ask me out (and I was worried about how to reject him) and later, he's excitedly talking about his fiance. In the exact same way I thought he was "flirting" with me. So, I am a HORRIBLE judge of if guys like me. HORRIBLE.
4. Uninterested - sadly, IF this guy is actually flirting, I don't think I'm interested. Damn it. There are many, many reasons, and I wish one of them wasn't that I don't really go for Asian guys. (Not includin the subcontinent).
Wow, that was a very detailed breakdown of a VERY TINY thing. I kind of enjoyed the breakdown tho. While I am generally very unorganized in life, I enjoy making lists of my thoughts. I must not be compeltely crazy. Right?
Anyway, the possible crush is such a SMALL PART of today's trivia night. Today is when we win the GUITAR! Hell yes.