Changing The Subject
Hey everybody, it has been a long time since i updated, so no surprises there. Anyway. My girlfriend is getting better at conversation in general, which is really cool in my opinion. She is getting a bit more open, a bit more expressinve, and just a bit more outgoing in general I think. Which is what i was hoping for. I mean, as long as she does not forsake her moral and religious foundation to become more outgoing, I cannot really see any bad coming from this. And i am pretty sure that she hasn't. Certainly i might seem like a bad influence because quite honestly i can talk very new age liberal. but on the other hand, when you get down to the solid rock and stone of my beliefs, everything klinda changes. Most people don't really see them, but that is because most people never get close enough to see them. like for example, i have never gone past first base. never will. i have gone up to the edge a bit, pushed the envelope, pulled some tricks in first that most people don't realize exist, but never past first.
And i got my friend Sapphire to come over to the all night church thing tonight. took some convincing because she had plans with her boyfriend already, but to be honest, i think that in a lot of ways i am closer to her than her boyfriend is. Seriously, this is not me just bragging for the sake of bragging. On the other hand, i really don't think i would want Cris's position. For starters, he has done more with the relationship than i ever could have. And, really, i think that on these grounds that he is the better man. And quite honestly, it is really wierd, but for a person that i would normally like, there is absolutely nothing but happiness for her. No jealousy or wanting or anything. And it isn't just because i have a girlfriend either, because they were in a relationship before me and Jade were going out.
And last but not least, i am starting to get that sick feeling again. the one that only comes when i have been skippping all my work. Italian would be the cause, and i really don't want to talk about it because it makes that sick feeling worse and worse. It is like death. It is the only word i could possibly use to describe it. it gives me images of plagues and pestillence, of rotting fruit and decomposing animals, complete with the smell. It started this morning. I need to do something pretty fast or it will cling to everything i do.
Well everything can't always be peaches and cream you know. So with that said, im out.
-Nobody
And i got my friend Sapphire to come over to the all night church thing tonight. took some convincing because she had plans with her boyfriend already, but to be honest, i think that in a lot of ways i am closer to her than her boyfriend is. Seriously, this is not me just bragging for the sake of bragging. On the other hand, i really don't think i would want Cris's position. For starters, he has done more with the relationship than i ever could have. And, really, i think that on these grounds that he is the better man. And quite honestly, it is really wierd, but for a person that i would normally like, there is absolutely nothing but happiness for her. No jealousy or wanting or anything. And it isn't just because i have a girlfriend either, because they were in a relationship before me and Jade were going out.
And last but not least, i am starting to get that sick feeling again. the one that only comes when i have been skippping all my work. Italian would be the cause, and i really don't want to talk about it because it makes that sick feeling worse and worse. It is like death. It is the only word i could possibly use to describe it. it gives me images of plagues and pestillence, of rotting fruit and decomposing animals, complete with the smell. It started this morning. I need to do something pretty fast or it will cling to everything i do.
Well everything can't always be peaches and cream you know. So with that said, im out.
-Nobody