maybe i should quit
Ok I really dont know what the fuck Im doing with my life anymore. Im going into my Organic Chemistry 2 final with a C. This final usually drops people 2 letter grades if they dont study their ass off for it and I just cant do it. I tried to study tonight but its just too much information. Its literally everything Ive crammed into my head since my sophomore year. I dont remember any of this shit and I just cant stand to look at that book anymore to figure it out.
On top of that- am I really trying to go to pharmacy school? I mean seriously this is the second time in a row Ive forgotten to sign up for the PCAT on time. Not to mention at this point I really dont even think Ill be accepted to pharmacy school anymore. Theyre going to look at me and ask why my gpa has fallen, why im getting a c in a class im taking for the second time (even though the first was audit bc i missed a test and he wouldnt let me make it up), and all sorts of other shit im doing wrong. I dont have any pharmacy expierence and I dont have any motivation left to try to get a postiion anywhere. I dont have any connections either. I seriously am starting to think Im wasting my life. Im not going to get into pharmacy school. I might be able to graduate with my genetics degree (which reminds me I was supposed to turn in my degree program in by the end of the semester and I havent looked at it since registration) but what the fuck am I really going to do? Im digging myself into debt with student loans to get by with tuition and rent since Im middle class, white, and a slightly above average male student so I cant have scholarships. I just keep pushing everything off to the side so I can live in the now and its ruining my life.
On top of that- am I really trying to go to pharmacy school? I mean seriously this is the second time in a row Ive forgotten to sign up for the PCAT on time. Not to mention at this point I really dont even think Ill be accepted to pharmacy school anymore. Theyre going to look at me and ask why my gpa has fallen, why im getting a c in a class im taking for the second time (even though the first was audit bc i missed a test and he wouldnt let me make it up), and all sorts of other shit im doing wrong. I dont have any pharmacy expierence and I dont have any motivation left to try to get a postiion anywhere. I dont have any connections either. I seriously am starting to think Im wasting my life. Im not going to get into pharmacy school. I might be able to graduate with my genetics degree (which reminds me I was supposed to turn in my degree program in by the end of the semester and I havent looked at it since registration) but what the fuck am I really going to do? Im digging myself into debt with student loans to get by with tuition and rent since Im middle class, white, and a slightly above average male student so I cant have scholarships. I just keep pushing everything off to the side so I can live in the now and its ruining my life.