don't you dare put me on HRSA
Just a little PSA when dealing with me.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I have mood swings like someone living with Bipolar, but instead of scheduley chemical type cause being involved, it's purely triggers. Normally there's something that sparks why I'm feeling what I am, no matter how big or small that may be. And no matter how big or small the emotional response. Or even if they correlate.
I'm volatile when I'm sad, and even more so when I'm angry.
I use my Livejournal to vent. 99% of the time, it's in-the-moment feelings that I just need to get out so that I won't go completely nuts.
I'm making a post in my LJ because I know I'm having problems. Reiterating that the things I've said are problems is not going to make my mental state any better. If I'm saying I'm working on figuring it out, then that's what I'm doing. I have made my priorities. Work, bills, Zodiac, and other outward functionality where other lives rely on me are most important. Once those are under control, I'll handle the other things after that. Sadly, things like my health tend to come second, especially when there's no immediate detrimental effect. I'm counting on myself to get to the issue before it becomes a lethal problem, but no, it's not priority.
I appreciate shows of concern, whether we talk often or not. Little words of "I hope you feel better" and "it's going to be alright" mean a whole lot.
But please don't try to play therapist with me when I'm in such a state. It's dangerous.
This isn't an excuse, it's a warning.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I have mood swings like someone living with Bipolar, but instead of scheduley chemical type cause being involved, it's purely triggers. Normally there's something that sparks why I'm feeling what I am, no matter how big or small that may be. And no matter how big or small the emotional response. Or even if they correlate.
I'm volatile when I'm sad, and even more so when I'm angry.
I use my Livejournal to vent. 99% of the time, it's in-the-moment feelings that I just need to get out so that I won't go completely nuts.
I'm making a post in my LJ because I know I'm having problems. Reiterating that the things I've said are problems is not going to make my mental state any better. If I'm saying I'm working on figuring it out, then that's what I'm doing. I have made my priorities. Work, bills, Zodiac, and other outward functionality where other lives rely on me are most important. Once those are under control, I'll handle the other things after that. Sadly, things like my health tend to come second, especially when there's no immediate detrimental effect. I'm counting on myself to get to the issue before it becomes a lethal problem, but no, it's not priority.
I appreciate shows of concern, whether we talk often or not. Little words of "I hope you feel better" and "it's going to be alright" mean a whole lot.
But please don't try to play therapist with me when I'm in such a state. It's dangerous.
This isn't an excuse, it's a warning.