close my eyes just to look at you

Oct 26, 2011 21:13

Lately I've been avoiding everything.

Avoiding roleplay, avoiding cleaning, avoiding eating, avoiding friends.

Avoiding the past.

Just.

Why is it that I miss things so badly, and I feel so guilty for disappearing the way I do.

And then when I make the effort to try and go back, to take back the things I want.

Take back what I love that I used to have.

I'm too scared to speak.

I write and rewrite an IM.

Before deleting it.

A text.

A phonecall.

It's so simple.

But I'm too scared to do it.

I'm just not sure why.

And so I remain a ghost.

I'm here, you guys.

I love you all.

I miss you all.

You just can't see me.
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