+_tell me that you want to fall in love again_+
so, the morning I posted my last entry, October 22nd, I asked Steph back out that day, and it's been going great, better than ever, ever, ever =] I had read over a lot of old things and realized that I wasn't getting lost in the past, I wasn't getting randomly angry over things that were over and done with and that I couldn't control. I was letting go of it all. so, I knew something was changing/changed in me, and I took a chance, asked for a dance, cause she's the cutest thing on this side of the world~
I LOVE NEVER SHOUT NEVER.
which brings me to this: the day I asked her out, Never Shout Never was doing a live webcast from the Loveway Records office in Joplin, and the phone rang, and I realized they had a number, so I found it and called it. 3 people called before me, but no one was talking, they all hung up or had a bad connection. sooo, Taylor answered the phone when I called, and I got to tell him that I loved him and Christofer and Hayden, and he said they loved me too and was about to hang up, but Chris goes "let me say hi!" and I got to fucking talk to him. he was goofy and said he liked my name and when we hung up, he said I was sweet, and Taylor agreed with him! <3 I cried really, really hard when we hung up and from time to time, I still break down over it. in a good way. =']
so, for now, Steph has a job and has been visiting me a lot since she got her license! she even stayed the night last week! <3 and is going to again during Thanksgiving break next week! =D I got to hold her while she slept and I just couldn't believe it was happening. that was our second time staying the night together in the past 4 years. so, hopefully, this 3rd time will be super amazing. I have a lot planned, like making cookies while watching Nightmare...she dreamed about that once, and it was winter, so...I'm gonna make her dream come true! ;D so cheesy.
Steph is really, really my one. =]
aaahhh head ache...so I'm going to smoke this cig and get some sleep.
after I pee.