Oh, River, sweep me away!
Holy shit! I let go, I go back to joining that flowing river that so many people allow to sweep them through life and suddenly so many things are going right. I don't doubt any more. I don't worry about how people think of me, I just go with it. I don't even think any more! It's amazing. I don't really even understand what happened. What did I do to cause this change all of a sudden? Not that I'm complaining. I love it! I would never go back to the controlling life I was leading before. Robert (if you ever read these things any more) maybe all the things you've been trying to tell me finally sunk in. Who knows? Who cares?!?!?! I'm happy! Yay!