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I've felt jumpy all day today for no damn reason. I was stuttering while I was on the phone with J and talking a mile a minute. I'm pretty sure he didn't understand half of what I said, but he stayed with me anyway, and that's all that matters. I sat there, reading passages from my favorite books, sometimes several pages worth, and he listened. I'm sure he was bored to tears. I get into weird moods like that, though. Where my mind flies from one subject to another in the span of an instant. And I will not shutup. Even if my mind is screaming it. Odd. I rambled endlessly about inane things. I think I'm half crazy.
I recently rediscovered an old journal-er that I used to read quite often. I used to read his entries avidly, drinking in every word, fantasizing about what it'd be like to know this kind of person in the real world. Now, after reading some of those entries, I can't summon any of the awe that I had before. It's probably a good thing since my first reaction is a little disturbing. I don't know where I was going with this, but it's easy to distract me. I swear I have ADD(my cop out, shh).
I've still got remants of the odd mood. I feel like I'm trying too hard. &I wish I had a piano. The end.
I recently rediscovered an old journal-er that I used to read quite often. I used to read his entries avidly, drinking in every word, fantasizing about what it'd be like to know this kind of person in the real world. Now, after reading some of those entries, I can't summon any of the awe that I had before. It's probably a good thing since my first reaction is a little disturbing. I don't know where I was going with this, but it's easy to distract me. I swear I have ADD(my cop out, shh).
I've still got remants of the odd mood. I feel like I'm trying too hard. &I wish I had a piano. The end.