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everything is so complicated. its never just what you see is what you get anymore. and somehow almost all of it is interconnected, making things even more difficult to understand.
i feel like my life resembles that game i used to play when i was little where you got all these sweet turning wheels and cogs and they fit together and you cranked one piece and all the other ones moved because of it in a chain reaction. but if you didnt set it up right the whole thing got fucked up and jammed and nothing would move. so then you had to figure out which piece needed to be moved or turned a different way to make it work again.
everything is connected and depending on things that happen or what is said some of the wheels stop working or want to turn a different way. im trying to be so careful not to fuck up just one of the wheels because that can throw the whole goddamn thing off.
im sure i sound like a crack head but it made sense in my mind.
i feel like my life resembles that game i used to play when i was little where you got all these sweet turning wheels and cogs and they fit together and you cranked one piece and all the other ones moved because of it in a chain reaction. but if you didnt set it up right the whole thing got fucked up and jammed and nothing would move. so then you had to figure out which piece needed to be moved or turned a different way to make it work again.
everything is connected and depending on things that happen or what is said some of the wheels stop working or want to turn a different way. im trying to be so careful not to fuck up just one of the wheels because that can throw the whole goddamn thing off.
im sure i sound like a crack head but it made sense in my mind.