college is only the best time of your life if you're alive for it...
i leave wednesday at 7 a.m.
come to find out i'll be coming home after i unload all my shit.
which makes me feel a tiny bit better.
but not much. it gives me a small bit more time.
i honestly feel like i'm going to be one of those college student suicide statistics.
that may be mildly over the top but im far past overwhelmed.
and the panic attacks arent stopping.
and i helped catch and save a tiny little kitten from the walmart parking lot last night.
and my last day of work was friday.
and everything is surreal.
but the days keep coming and going much too fast.
and i cant sit still in one place for too long.
i cant stand being at home anymore.
i have to be out with the people i dont want to leave behind.
my stomach twists into never-ending knots.
i burst into random tears now.
its like a bomb i cant see coming.
come to find out i'll be coming home after i unload all my shit.
which makes me feel a tiny bit better.
but not much. it gives me a small bit more time.
i honestly feel like i'm going to be one of those college student suicide statistics.
that may be mildly over the top but im far past overwhelmed.
and the panic attacks arent stopping.
and i helped catch and save a tiny little kitten from the walmart parking lot last night.
and my last day of work was friday.
and everything is surreal.
but the days keep coming and going much too fast.
and i cant sit still in one place for too long.
i cant stand being at home anymore.
i have to be out with the people i dont want to leave behind.
my stomach twists into never-ending knots.
i burst into random tears now.
its like a bomb i cant see coming.