Dont Call Me A God
First things first, I don’t want this new entry to be a comeback tour. I don’t want it to become something overblown, cast aside as a “publicity stunt” if you had acctually read the journal I said it was the end of this journal, this being “metalliclash”. I thought it was time for a new chapter in my journal. I thought the best way to do it was to start over. What I could do is make a new journal that was better than the old one. Metalliclash was meant to be a starter if you will. Something to say “maybe this will work” or lets try something new. I did it with the intent of having people read it and praise me for it. As time wore on I became hungry with the power that I had been given. People expected me to churn out entrys like a copy machine, making something funny for people to read. Months would pass since I started the journal. I had high hopes for it. I wanted it to be something that everyone could finally read and take a breather from the normal “I am so bored….i ate a sandwich today LOL” livejournal. I personaly was sick of these journals, so I decided to make one that was the opposite, the anti-livejournal if you will. I decided I would make entrys that were like open ended essays. Ones that people would read and go “yea sure I agree”. This was my mistake. In making these I opened myself up for backlash. I didn’t realize this until a few weeks ago (even a few months ago but it was resolved). I wrote one phrase and suddenly I was hated beyond belief. I was instantly a target for argument. This was something I had not expected. I thought that everyone agred with my essays. That everyone who took the time to go online and see my journal would agree with me. It came as a shock to me and I became depressed. I saw the journal as something that was slowly degrading itself. Until finally I saw (or I thought) that not many people anymore read it. With such a warming embrace of my friends and readers, some of which I barely talk to myself, I looked at myself. I looked at the reasons why I started it, versus why I kept it. I relized that now my main goals to write something that attracted comments. Ahh yes, the cocaine to my motley crue, comments were my love. I wanted lots. I started writing entrys that I hoped would get me tons. Soon they ran dry and I wasent having fun anymore. That’s when I realized the truth. Im not out here to please people, im out here to please myself, and If I happen to make one person happy doing it then so be it. Metalliclash may be done, but this new one will pickup where I left off. In a new direction. One out to please myself. one to inform people, to educate, to make people realize certain things. But most of all, a new journal free of bitching. I will now write what I want to write. It will be my opinons and if your opinions differ, then there is a back button to the left hand corner of your screen. You can leave if you don’t believe me. If your issues differ and you want to argue about it, do it. I don’t care anymore. You cant bash me till I bleed. Cause I don’t bleed baby, I fucking shine.