Its time to get going, what lies ahead I have no way of knowing. But under my feet, grass is growing
01. Soooo... from the looks of everybody's present list, most of you had a good Christmas. Mine wasn't bad. My dad kind of ticked me off (what's new?) because after saying he couldn't afford to buy me a laptop for Chrismtas, he proceeded to spend at least $900 because he got me a buttload of gifcards to my favorite stores, an amazing Chai (aka: really expensive) hair straightener, and every tv show/movie on my list. I don't want to sound ungrateful, because I'm not, but I hate it when he does this. A laptop would have been cheaper and it wouldn't have made me feel like an ungrateful spoiled brat. Even when he's going good, he manages to ruin the holidays. *huffs*
02. My mom got me some awesome stuff, mostly clothes from Old Navy, but also some cute black snow-boot-ish shoes that are really cute, plus a buttload of candy to make Hider very happy lol. It was a good Christmas (mostly because I spent it with her and Toe and not my dad lol). We mostly just chilled. I watched Bones on DVD (and capped it ;) and some Gilmore Girls, while they just hung.
03. My mom was off Tuesday so we got to spend the day together. We saw Rocky Balboa (great movie, I was suprised at how good actually, plus? MILO! HEE.) Then we used my giftcards to get Starbucks and some movies at Blockbuster. Little Miss Sunshine was that awesome kind of hysterical deadpan that made me love it. The Last Kiss was an awesome movie too, plus Zach and and Rachel are way to pretty together lol). We also got the first disc of Alias: Season One because the topic randomly came up the other day and she was interested, and ended up loving it (which means I'm about to get obsessed again lol).
04. Aside from all that, I've mostly just been hanging out being emo at the fact that me and mom are never going to get out of this hole of awfulness, no matter what we do. I'm kind of over it now because I think we found a solution. *points down*
05. I know you all think I'm is crazy (and you're totally right, I am) but what you might not know is that it's genetic. I got it completely from my mother, and I love her for it. Now wtf am I babbling on about? I think me and Mom are going to move to South Lake Tahoe, aka: home of SAM. Basically? My mom is dying to just pack up and leave this place, because honestly, nothing's going to get better while we still live here. So in order to convince me of this....
Crazy Mother: I don't care where we move, I'll move wherever you'll move with me.
Me: Mom.... *sighs*
Crazy Mother: Indiana? (where our family lives)
Me: God no. *is terrified*
Crazy Mother: New York City!
Me: *is tempted but*... No.
Crazy Mother: South Lake Tahoe!!
Me: *pauses*
She knew just what would get me lol. At first I was still all resistant but the more I started to think about it, the more she started to win me over. First off - Sam. Reason enough to consider lol. Then I started thinking about what I'd leave behind and... I realized there's nothing.
My school is *shrug* whatever. My dad... I honestly I think we'd have a better relationship if I didn't live close. My friends are just... temperary. As much as I love Jayna and Scott, I won't talk to them after they graduate this year anyway. Sidney is the only one I'll always talk to, and that'll stay the same no matter where I live. The only thing I hate to leave is the newspaper and KET, because I love doing those, and have worked so hard to be Editor and President next year. But in the end it's just not enough to keep me here. So I don't know.
I just feel like I would be happier there. Not only would I be able to get away from my dad and this God-forsaken town, but as sad as it sounds, I would already start out with more friends. I also think I'd just generally fit in better because I wouldn't be *insert real name here*, I would be Hider. And I like being Hider better. /multi-personality talk that is probably freaking you all out.
We're still in research mode, looking into apartments and jobs and such but my mom is way serious about it and the only thing really stopping us is my dad. He can't stop us but he can make it way harder. I mean, I'm 16 so I have the final say, but he could hold up the process, not to mention take my college fund away, or just be melodramatic as always. But we'll see. I really want to now and it's pretty much the only thing on me and my mom's brain at the moment lol.
02. My mom got me some awesome stuff, mostly clothes from Old Navy, but also some cute black snow-boot-ish shoes that are really cute, plus a buttload of candy to make Hider very happy lol. It was a good Christmas (mostly because I spent it with her and Toe and not my dad lol). We mostly just chilled. I watched Bones on DVD (and capped it ;) and some Gilmore Girls, while they just hung.
03. My mom was off Tuesday so we got to spend the day together. We saw Rocky Balboa (great movie, I was suprised at how good actually, plus? MILO! HEE.) Then we used my giftcards to get Starbucks and some movies at Blockbuster. Little Miss Sunshine was that awesome kind of hysterical deadpan that made me love it. The Last Kiss was an awesome movie too, plus Zach and and Rachel are way to pretty together lol). We also got the first disc of Alias: Season One because the topic randomly came up the other day and she was interested, and ended up loving it (which means I'm about to get obsessed again lol).
04. Aside from all that, I've mostly just been hanging out being emo at the fact that me and mom are never going to get out of this hole of awfulness, no matter what we do. I'm kind of over it now because I think we found a solution. *points down*
05. I know you all think I'm is crazy (and you're totally right, I am) but what you might not know is that it's genetic. I got it completely from my mother, and I love her for it. Now wtf am I babbling on about? I think me and Mom are going to move to South Lake Tahoe, aka: home of SAM. Basically? My mom is dying to just pack up and leave this place, because honestly, nothing's going to get better while we still live here. So in order to convince me of this....
Crazy Mother: I don't care where we move, I'll move wherever you'll move with me.
Me: Mom.... *sighs*
Crazy Mother: Indiana? (where our family lives)
Me: God no. *is terrified*
Crazy Mother: New York City!
Me: *is tempted but*... No.
Crazy Mother: South Lake Tahoe!!
Me: *pauses*
She knew just what would get me lol. At first I was still all resistant but the more I started to think about it, the more she started to win me over. First off - Sam. Reason enough to consider lol. Then I started thinking about what I'd leave behind and... I realized there's nothing.
My school is *shrug* whatever. My dad... I honestly I think we'd have a better relationship if I didn't live close. My friends are just... temperary. As much as I love Jayna and Scott, I won't talk to them after they graduate this year anyway. Sidney is the only one I'll always talk to, and that'll stay the same no matter where I live. The only thing I hate to leave is the newspaper and KET, because I love doing those, and have worked so hard to be Editor and President next year. But in the end it's just not enough to keep me here. So I don't know.
I just feel like I would be happier there. Not only would I be able to get away from my dad and this God-forsaken town, but as sad as it sounds, I would already start out with more friends. I also think I'd just generally fit in better because I wouldn't be *insert real name here*, I would be Hider. And I like being Hider better. /multi-personality talk that is probably freaking you all out.
We're still in research mode, looking into apartments and jobs and such but my mom is way serious about it and the only thing really stopping us is my dad. He can't stop us but he can make it way harder. I mean, I'm 16 so I have the final say, but he could hold up the process, not to mention take my college fund away, or just be melodramatic as always. But we'll see. I really want to now and it's pretty much the only thing on me and my mom's brain at the moment lol.