Aug 24, 2006 18:12
"It's only doubts that we're counting
On fingers broken long ago.
I read with every broken heart
We should become more adventurous.
And if you bannish me from your profits
And if I get bannished from the kingdom up above
I'd sacrifice money and heaven all for love.
Let me be loved, let me be loved
And if my brain quits
Well, then I guess then that's just it.
And if my hands stop working
then you can call me lazy.
And if I get pregnant
Then I'll just have the baby.
Let it be loved, let me be loved
I've been trying to nod my head
But it's like I've got a broken neck
Wanting to say "I will" as my last testament.
For you to be saved and me to be brave
We don't have to walk down that aisle
Cause if marriage aint enough
Well, at least we'll be loved.
I've felt the wind on my cheek
Coming down from the east
And thought about how we are all
Numerous as leaves on trees
And maybe ours is the cause
Of all mankind.
Get loved, make more, try to stay alive.
I've been trying to nod my head
But it's like I've got a broken neck
Wanting to say "I will" as my last testament.
For you to be saved and me to be brave
We don't have to walk down that aisle
Cause if marriage aint enough,
Well, at least we'll be loved. "
I feel this song describes my year, my life right now, whatever. Minus that apparently she eventually gets someone to love her. I've been thinking about this a lot lately. It is now that all of my close friends have a significant other of some sort, and that makes me feel pretty darn lonely. They're always getting calls from their boyfriends, out with their boyfriends, thinking about their boyfriends, talking about their boyfriends, the list is really endless. It's phenomenal how well this has worked out for everyone else.
And then there's me. I thought I had it, I really did. I mean, yeah, things were pretty messed up and extremely confusing, but I thought if I stuck with it and was patient it would work out. Needless to say it didn't and I'm still very confused over that. I don't understand what happened, how it all just crumbled. It makes no sense to me, but if I say that I simply get chided for being dumb or silly.
Besides, I don't know if it's worth it right now. I mean I just have senior year left, and then I'm leaving. Why get all involved now you know?
P.S. EVERYONE SEE LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE. it's phenomenal