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So it looks like I have this AWESOME chance to be happy, but with it I sacrifice alot. But isn't love about sacrifice and compromise? I guess I will just have to prove to Kyle that I love him enough to make this HUGE change. I just hope that it doesn't end in pain and loss.
I think about all the things that he has done for me. Every smile and laugh and kiss... It all means so much to me. I just get so mad sometimes... so hurt... But its like I should take it and hide it all. I don't know how long I can do that. I want so badly to be with him... To play halo, watch movies, have lazy days... I miss my baby so much. It is like i am not really even here... All I do is play halo, read and wait for his phone call. I don't want to go anywhere... Like I got out last night and was sick most of the time... I wonder if I am sick because he isn't here? Like my mind knows it and my heart feels it so I am just making myself sick. I don't think that there is anything wrong with me... Well besides depression...
I think about all the things that he has done for me. Every smile and laugh and kiss... It all means so much to me. I just get so mad sometimes... so hurt... But its like I should take it and hide it all. I don't know how long I can do that. I want so badly to be with him... To play halo, watch movies, have lazy days... I miss my baby so much. It is like i am not really even here... All I do is play halo, read and wait for his phone call. I don't want to go anywhere... Like I got out last night and was sick most of the time... I wonder if I am sick because he isn't here? Like my mind knows it and my heart feels it so I am just making myself sick. I don't think that there is anything wrong with me... Well besides depression...