In Thought
I just got back from a nice long walk with Zach, we had a conversation about a lot of stuff, things that happened last night, just life things, coming from different backgrounds, it was a nice time. It was good to just be outside and walk, it's a great way to clear the mind. I'm fairly content right now, just a bit worried about my paper because I definitely need to get it done. I hope to be in bed by 2 tonight but I can't ever make any promises about that. Today has been a bit strange, I'm really happy with dinner tonight because it was really really really good. I love shrimp more than any other food and that's what I ate a ton of, gotta love it. I did my Christmas shopping for my brother 2 days ago, I spent a little over $200 on him, and I am going to probably spend about the same on my parents combined, maybe a bit more. I don't want to go into detail about what I got (just in case you read this you sneaky bastard) so he'll have to wait. I don't even care about gifts for Christmas, I just want to be home and have a good HAPPY time with my family. I got to see my Dad and Uncle tonight, but I was really happy to see my Dad. It's great to see him sober, at least I know he is still human then, I think I embarassed him by asking him to show everyone his "camel toe". It is SO funny, and no it isn't like that you sickos. I've really gotten into Strata lately, especially this one song called "When It's All Burning". I think I have an internal liking for power chords, but this song hits me over and over again as special. This band is just like my other typical ones, I like them a lot. I've been thinking a lot about the other half of our race, ya know, girls. ...I know it's the time in my life where my body is changing so don't give me that speech. But in all seriousness, I've had enough of this single life and I am going to change it. There are so many different people on this campus, I just need to find someone I am interested in and go from there. I've always been scared to start a relationship with anyone, fear of not being enough, fear of not doing things right, fear of loss, I don't really know what it is that holds me back. If any of you have any advice for me, by all means pull me aside and talk to me, I'm not good with girls, I'm especially not good with making the first move. Oh, and if any of you happen to know of someone that is secretly crushing on me, for God's sake and my own let me know, lol. That always helps, thanks. Well, I guess that's all I got for right now, I am probably just going to sit here and listen to music and do some thought stuff. You all know how I am, peace.
>Donavan
>Donavan