Is There Any Chances for Us? Chapter Nine
Title: Is There Any Chances for Us?
Pairing: YamaChii, NakaChii
Genre: Angst, Friendship, Romance
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Yamada Ryosuke and Chinen Yuri are couple and been married for about two years already, everyone might
think that they’re a perfect couple. Yes they’re actually a perfect couple but everyone didn’t know that behind those perfections, there’s sad realization.
Warning: Chinen is a girl here. If you don’t like, you don’t need to read this.
Note: Italics words means characters thought. Enjoy Reading!
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Yuri looks at with an earnest gaze at the dark night sky from the window, stars are twinkling yet the moon’s haft body is hiding. She always loves to give some time just to look up, she loves the serenity look of the sky even day or night and it always gives her hope that someday, a happy life is waiting to welcome her.
“It’s already your birthday next week” a voice suddenly darted, that jolted yuri a bit disturbing her peace of mind. She slows turn her head to determined the source of the voice, it was her tall best friend, and she smiles at him
“Any plans?” he asks shrugging both of his arms, yuri tilted her head before shaking it as an answer
“Why?” yuto ask
“I don’t have any plans at all, it’s just that…. it’s a normal day for me” yuri normally glancing at the night sky again
The tall guy watched her. Those dark orbs that she have, yuto can saw a deep emotions in her eyes even though she’s lying yuto knows what she truly felt and her eyes could explain everything she felt since the very beginning.
“It’s your first time again, celebrating it without him.” He continued, Yuri bit her lips, as she heard it.
“Are you sad?” yuto asks, he was quite indelicate for asking such question
“Yutii~ you know that I’m in the process of moving on?” she reminded again, frowning as she did
“I’m sorry!” the taller bow his head, as yuri just look at him. He curses himself for asking such thing; he knows that yuri is so easy to get irritated over something that she doesn’t like to discuss. She just shook her head, telling him it’s okay
“Never mind, I’m craving for something”
“What is it?” he asks following her
“Doughnuts and strawberry flavored ice cream. I want the bigger one. Please~” she whined
Yuto chuckles and smile at her face and her odd cravings again, she looks really cute whenever she has her odd cravings that he needs to fulfill, it wasn’t a big burden at the taller though.
“Why are you laughing?” she asks innocently, crossing both of her arms on to her chest
“Nothing... It’s just that, I always expected for that” he was about to walk when yuri took hold of his arms and stops him, he face her confusedly
“c..can I go with you?” yuto nodded
“Are you sure? But what if you might get tired” yuto asks, assuring her
“I don’t wanna wait!”
“okay~” he answer, soon driving on their way to the store to buy her desires. A box of doughnuts and a strawberry flavored ice cream
She quickly open the box, and stuff the food inside her mouth continuously, she’s really a big eater and ate as if a box of doughnuts isn’t enough for her. Yuto could only stare at her, mouth agape
“Why are you staring at me like that?” she raised a brow, still munching her food “do I have something on my face?” she asks curiously, her brows furrowed “or you just wanted to eat this too?” she stretched her arms feeding him the sweet, round fluffy thing that she’s eating. The taller shook his head, gesturing a ‘no thanks’
“No, say aaaaah~! Just took a bite, it’s for the baby.” Yuri insisted
“Okay~ okay~” yuto gave up, when yuri shows her famous puppy eyes attacked that would make everyone can’t say no to her request.
After that he drove her home.
“Goodnight, rest for the baby” he whispered
“Thanks for tonight yutti~” she smiled at him
“Can I touch you tummy?” he asks
“Sure”
Yuto touched her baby bump that already formed in her, he gently rubs it “hi there, it’s me yuto-jii chan. baby, are you sleeping already? You’re tired too? Hmmm… don’t worry, I’ll take good care of you, kay? Don’t stress your mommy that much, okay? Tomorrow I’ll bring her strawberries again; I think you’ll love that one too.” Yuri giggles at her bestfriend’s antics “goodnight little one.” he kissed her bump, it’s totally awkward but no, yuri doesn’t feel any awkwardness at all and besides yuto is her bestfriend and there’s nothing more.
Yuto stood up, and was about to walks out of the room, when yuri suddenly called him, he turn back to face her giving his questioning look, when yuri suddenly calls his name again and walk towards him to gave him a surprising hug that he never been expected.
“Thank you so much! Thank you” she thanked still hugging him with a teary eyes, the taller felt that there’s wet on his shoulder and slight sob was heard so he broke the hug and stare at her face
“Don’t cry” he whispers caressing her face
“I can’t help it” she probably couldn’t helped it, his actions touches her, she realized how much she bothers him, makes him worried but the guy can still act kind towards her and will always willing to help her in any possible way. Yuto shows his goofy grin and messed her hair “don’t you know that, crying makes you ugly? Huh?” he tries to put a joke to make her smile
“baka yutti~” she pouted and gently punches his chest
“Now, show me your famous smile, coz the baby wants you to smile” he bend down to talk to the baby inside her tummy “you want your mommy to smile right?” he asks and rub it gently, ‘alright’ he nodded and stands up “the baby is asking for your smile. Why don’t you smile now?” yuri giggled once more and smile at him
“You’re so beautiful, don’t you know that?”
Yuri pouted and tilts her head “you! Liar! I’m a fatty!” she pouted even more
“Seriously? You’re not! It’s normal, you’re pregnant. It’s the baby’s weight not yours” he stated trying to assured that she never did once gain weight since she got pregnant
“Okay~ I know. Go home now!” she said gently pushes him away and waves her hands and bid her goodbye.
It was the last day for the month of November; it’s a cold and silent night for Yuri, as she woke up from her bed when she heard a knock from the door. She realizes that she had fallen asleep while packing up her things.
“I wonder who it is?” yuri asks herself as she yawn, she twisted the knob and her eyes went wide when she saw Yamada Ryosuke right in front of her.
“wh-what are you doing here?” she asks confusedly
“Happy Birthday!” he greeted her with a smile, yuri bow her head as a thank you. Yuri was about to close the door when the guy stops her
“Can i?” he asks, yuri nodded and opens the door for him
Ryosuke was shocked when there’s no sign that she celebrated her birthday
“Who’s with you?” he asks
“Alone” she answer normally
“No celebration?”
“There’s no celebration… I know you’re here to get your stuffs again, so uhmmm… I’l leave you first” she said yawning, but this time it was fake one
Ryosuke followed as yuri walks on her way to the bedroom, but something caught his attention.
“What’s this?” he asks her pointing at the bags in the living room, yuri stop her tracks and took a glance at the bags that she prepared awhile ago
“Ah! My stuffs! that reminds me” yuri then said as she quickly get the keys from the drawer and walks to his spot to gave it back to him, it was the key of the house.
“here. thank you” yuri said giving him the keys
“Why?” ryosuke asks curiously while looking at the key on his palm
“I’m just returning it back to you since this house is yours.” She shows a slight smile “I packed my stuffs, for i know you’ll be needing this soon, when you get married and have your own family” she added bitterly, there’s a pain in her voice.
“you know this house is yours too------”
“ah! The room” yuri said while pointing at the room beside their bedroom, she was trying to change a topic for she doesn’t want any further explanation of why she’s going to leave the house, she has long been excruciated by a dogged pain in her heart.
She took a deep breath, before twisting the door knob. The cute room welcomes the two young couple that used to be there ages ago, a wave of nostalgia passed through them when they step at the floor of the supposed to be their baby’s room.
Yuri being the most nostalgic one here, having her nostalgically look in her eyes as every detail of memories are flashing inside her mind.
“Remember this room?” she asks and the guy could just nod, while following her.
“I’m glad you still remember. Ah here!!” yuri walks inside and touches the wall which is decorated with cute teddy bear stickers, there’s a glowing in the dark stars, moon, suns and other shapes too “I remember, we stayed late at night just to stick it because were both so excited to decorate the baby’s room” she chuckles “this room is so cute, I never been here and never tried to open it since the day you left.” there was an awkward silent, as ryosuke just listen to her, having no words to utter.
“uhmm.. ryosuke, I just want to let you know that this room will be perfect for your baby. Just a suggestion” she suggested, and ryosuke knew so well that she’s pretending, he could recognize the sadness in her tone so well, she looks far far away as she continue to speak
“I know you’ll be a great daddy. I can sense that, and I can’t wait to see you become a dad, Ugh” she heave a sign “I can’t wait to see how adorable your babies are.. ” she pretended that she was happy for him though it was all lies,, she wore a pained expression on her face “last night. i went here, to fix the room and to clean it, I finished the decoration so that It’ll look perfect! Why don’t you bring your wife here and asks her if the room is already okay. I hope she’ll love It but……. I know she wanted to decorate a room since it’s you and her baby” she said bitterly “ryosuke--- look, the cr---” ryosuke cut her words when he began to spoke
“WHY?” he asks, his voice was rough. His heart broke into pieces that he wanted to cry for her, he feels so sad for her, if he only knew that his sympathy won’t ease the pain that she felt “why are you doing this? Why?” he can’t understand her at all, why is she doing this as if she was happy?
“Is something wrong? You don’t want the design of the room? It’s ok if you don’t like this.. You can change it anytime you wanted to” she said casually
“THAT’S NOT THE POINT!” he shouted, that scares her. He putted both of his hand on her shoulder and look at her straight in the eyes. Yuri was too shocked to say something, so she just looks at the hands on her shoulder. Ryosuke stare at her dark orbs, trying to understand and to know the emotion that’s reflecting on those shining black orbs that she has but somewhat a drop of transparent, clear saline fluid are building on her eyes, which will ready to shed some tears in no time.
“Stop pretending! Yuri, stop pretending that everything is fine!” tears finally flow down “There’s nothing wrong with this?” she started “I’m just… just trying to be happy. Can I be happy for once? Ryosuke, can’t i? I wanted to experience a happy life too, a life that in which I always smile and laugh every single day with no problems” she look down, shedding more and more tears “I’m smiling just to let you know that I’m okay even if it hurts, so that you won’t worry” yuri’s body was shaking, she’s mad, hurt and sad at the same time “I’m smiling so that no one will notice every scar in my heart, every pain that I feel inside and I’M SMILING, PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY THAT SOMEONE OUT THERE IS CARRYING YOUR OWN BABY, WHEN IT SUPPOSED TO BE ME?!! IT’S SUPPOSED TO BE ME CARRYING YOUR BABY! RYOSUKE!” she screams pointing at herself, all these time she was trying to put a past hurts behind her, but it already reached the point that she can’t take it anymore.
She shook her head, as she look down “I was too tired to think of something; don’t you know how much I wanted to have one too? No! You don’t have any idea before, that I was crying alone pressuring myself to think of any possible ways for me to get pregnant, just to make you happy!
It’s not like, I’m okay with the situation that we have before! I wanted to have a baby too! I always wanted and do wished to have one! Don’t just think of yourself! Think of me too, and my feelings!” yuri pants after her long statement
“Can you feel something? Can you feel something strange about me? My appearance?! Ryosuke, tell me” she persuaded, as she turn her gaze away
“What if I get pregnant today? What if I’ll tell you that I’m pregnant?! Would you love me again? Would you come back to me and love me again??!”
Ryosuke didn’t utter any single word, instead he hugged her.
“Who say that I don’t love you? I love you yuri, and I always do” he said calmly, he can feel her crying on his chest
“but why, I can’t feel?” She asked, leaning her head on to yamada’s chest, he could do nothing but wrap his arms even more tightly around her waist.
“I understand what you feel, but please. I’m begging you. Let’s just stop talking about this! About having a baby, pregnancy and so.. On.. I know, it will just hurt us.”
“Please answer me? Answer my question ryosuke?” yuri begged him but ryosuke didn’t answer her question “touch my tummy!” ryosuke do nothing, in his mind yuri is getting daft or something.
“So that it?” yuri broke the hug
“yuri, we all know that it’s impossible for you to get pregnant. Please, I already accepted the fact” he stated and it hurts her, it ripped her heart into a tiny shreds ‘his words’ everything, is so painful. So that’s it? ryosuke kept in his mind that She, Chinen Yuri won’t get pregnant anymore, and was already hopeless for it
“I understand~” she nodded, wiping her own tears “and I always do. Always giving you an ounce of understanding, even if it hurts me, I’m always giving a way”
“Our marriage, everything that happened to us, forget it and let’s live a peaceful life” she continue
“yuri-?” he called her but she’s not yet done of her statement
“shssssh~ I’m okay, please don’t worry about me, kay? I will always remain loyal and understanding wife to you Yamada Ryosuke-kun” she fakes a smile, and even fakes a laughs
“Ryosuke-kun?” he was shocked and his eyes went all wide at her statement
“uhmm… please be a good husband and take good care of you wife, don’t make her cry, kay? You’ll be having a baby soon, and I just wanna congratulate you this early. Just keep in you mind, that I will always love you”
I’m strong enough to let you go……. No, I’m not yet strong enough, but I’m letting you go..
“My baby” she rub her tummy, closing her eyes as tears began to fall again from her eyes “my baby, can you feel me? Can you feel that your mommy is crying? Do you feel the same way too? Are you crying too? Daddy is going to marry someone soon; daddy will be having a family soon, it’s not us baby but can we be happy for him?
Baby I’m sorry, I failed to tell him the truth; he won’t believe me anymore, so I gave up on us. I can feel you’re crying inside me. Why? Is that a sign of sadness that you felt? Please don’t be sad, I’m willing to suffer just to give you happiness, like I always do to your daddy. I’ll raise you on my own; I’ll work hard to provide your needs and I’ll be a good mommy. I’ll promise to decorate a room for you too.
No matter what will happen, mommy is always be here to take good care of you, to protect you until you grow up.
I love you so much baby, and I love your daddy too. Let’s have a quite and peaceful life like I always wanted, Even though these wounded feelings of mine won’t keep me live peacefully, I will try my best to smile and to be okay, this is for the best of us.
Love your mommy”
No words can describe what Yuri truly felt on that day, and added the fact that it was her birthday. All she knew is, it was a night of pain, tears, one thing is for sure; it was the worst birthday she had encountered.
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I’m crying when I think how miserable yuri is… but life goes on…. The pain is nearly in the end, so hold on guys. Maybe? Sorry for being such an Melodramatic fool.
I’m not that sure, if I can post the next chapter, next week. I won’t promise, but the next chapter is waiting to be posted next week.
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