grumble.
i feel like i dont know anything anymore. i feel like im questioning everything.
maybe i got too greedy , and god is just putting me back in my place.
maybe this is a blessing in disguise
maybe i was losing touch with myself. i definitely feel like ive lost touch with god.
it didnt start feeling this way till recently. i guess im getting tired of always trying to help, only to end up causing more trouble than to begin with.
im tired of feeling like im getting in the way. like nothing i can say, and do is enough.
im afraid of havin to start all over again, again.
im afraid ill never find anyone as utterly handsome as you.
im afraid that no matter how hard i try, ill always still be a sinner.
im afraid to speak my mind, because im afraid ill end up passing judgement. i cant throw stones.
i guess im hurt. and frustrated. a little ashamed as well. its hard to put your trust into something time and time again only to have the rug pulled from beneath you, time and time again.
i want the opportunity, to be around something positive . something that will encourage my growth as a singular human being . accepting me as that. patience to recognize that everyone is just as i am.
i want to relight my relationship with god, feel that little light inside again. i just feel so let down.
but, like i said, maybe i got too greedy. who am i ?
maybe i got too greedy , and god is just putting me back in my place.
maybe this is a blessing in disguise
maybe i was losing touch with myself. i definitely feel like ive lost touch with god.
it didnt start feeling this way till recently. i guess im getting tired of always trying to help, only to end up causing more trouble than to begin with.
im tired of feeling like im getting in the way. like nothing i can say, and do is enough.
im afraid of havin to start all over again, again.
im afraid ill never find anyone as utterly handsome as you.
im afraid that no matter how hard i try, ill always still be a sinner.
im afraid to speak my mind, because im afraid ill end up passing judgement. i cant throw stones.
i guess im hurt. and frustrated. a little ashamed as well. its hard to put your trust into something time and time again only to have the rug pulled from beneath you, time and time again.
i want the opportunity, to be around something positive . something that will encourage my growth as a singular human being . accepting me as that. patience to recognize that everyone is just as i am.
i want to relight my relationship with god, feel that little light inside again. i just feel so let down.
but, like i said, maybe i got too greedy. who am i ?