whatever.
i deleted myspace because i want to get rid of anything that makes me feel crappy, which is pretty much everyone i know and used to know. i also plan on changing my phone number. it's all pretty necessary, and i feel better about things already. i just realized that too much of my life is dependent on other peoples' perceptions of it. not that i do the things i do for other people, but i always depended on their response. i meant to start a journal today, to channel things more productively, but couldn't find one.
i also got a pap test today which was fun. i was sitting i nthere for like 10 minutes with a sheet on my lap and thought about calling taib but ultimately decided that might be a little weird.
i feel a lot of drama coming on that actually DOESN' t have to do with tedd, which is just what i needed. the thing is, just leave me alone and let me sleep until you want to drink a lot or go on adventures.
i watched charlie brown tonight and it was great. i know i've been saying for a long time that charles schultz was my hero, but the thing is, i'm pretty serious. i think his art is very moving and i think the whole outcome of the drawings, stories, characters, and the little flashing star at the end is amazing.
this is kind of like squirrels. for a long time i would tell people, excitedly, about the things i see squirrels doing, usually while walking on campus. and i would think to myself, wow squirrels are so cute they make me pretty happy. but i thought that was lame and i sounded like a retard, so i never fully admitted to myself, until today, that squirrels really are fucking rad ass.
i'm sleeping at home tonight because after a doctor's appointment tonight, i have another one in the morning to see if i have skin cancer. basically, life rules.
actually, i have to say i'm pretty grateful to have a certain boy in my life. it may not be perfect, in fact it may not be anything at all, but he's fun and he likes me. w00t.
i also got a pap test today which was fun. i was sitting i nthere for like 10 minutes with a sheet on my lap and thought about calling taib but ultimately decided that might be a little weird.
i feel a lot of drama coming on that actually DOESN' t have to do with tedd, which is just what i needed. the thing is, just leave me alone and let me sleep until you want to drink a lot or go on adventures.
i watched charlie brown tonight and it was great. i know i've been saying for a long time that charles schultz was my hero, but the thing is, i'm pretty serious. i think his art is very moving and i think the whole outcome of the drawings, stories, characters, and the little flashing star at the end is amazing.
this is kind of like squirrels. for a long time i would tell people, excitedly, about the things i see squirrels doing, usually while walking on campus. and i would think to myself, wow squirrels are so cute they make me pretty happy. but i thought that was lame and i sounded like a retard, so i never fully admitted to myself, until today, that squirrels really are fucking rad ass.
i'm sleeping at home tonight because after a doctor's appointment tonight, i have another one in the morning to see if i have skin cancer. basically, life rules.
actually, i have to say i'm pretty grateful to have a certain boy in my life. it may not be perfect, in fact it may not be anything at all, but he's fun and he likes me. w00t.