A New Beginning - I Guess
On September 25, I'd be 25. This is also the mark of a new beginning for me. I promise myself to change myself completely after I turn 25.
The last 2 years have not been good for me. There are a lot of things that happened, which unfortunately add to my bad experiences. In addition to these bad experiences are the people involve with them. What's even worse is that I've become paranoid. For these past years, I have not been living a life that I want. I don't want to go outside, because I'm scared to be seen by these people. I don't want to meet them again nor see them. I don't want them see me nor do I want them to know anything that's been going on with my life recently. That's why I never open my Facebook account to non-friends and enable my visibility, so that they can't add me nor can they send me a message.
How I've been living recently? I manage to work at home. I find freelance jobs, and I fortunately get some jobs now and then. Recently, I have landed a good-paying job, which makes me hope to save enough money, so that I can move out from my parents' home, and then start anew in another city. This will be quite difficult for me, for someone who is very well sheltered and sometimes spoiled by my parents, being their only daughter. I also know that it will not be easy for my father if I am away from home. I understand his feelings and worries, but I need to go away from this place, in order for me to completely move on. I've done this before, although I've only managed to live away from home for 5 months. This time, since I am already old enough, I think I can manage to live independently. I wont return home until I put all things in their proper places, live the life I want to live, and I can finally face the people from the past.
I hope everything's going to be all right, and everything will eventually fall into place. The only thing I want in this life is to make my life happier and more productive.
The last 2 years have not been good for me. There are a lot of things that happened, which unfortunately add to my bad experiences. In addition to these bad experiences are the people involve with them. What's even worse is that I've become paranoid. For these past years, I have not been living a life that I want. I don't want to go outside, because I'm scared to be seen by these people. I don't want to meet them again nor see them. I don't want them see me nor do I want them to know anything that's been going on with my life recently. That's why I never open my Facebook account to non-friends and enable my visibility, so that they can't add me nor can they send me a message.
How I've been living recently? I manage to work at home. I find freelance jobs, and I fortunately get some jobs now and then. Recently, I have landed a good-paying job, which makes me hope to save enough money, so that I can move out from my parents' home, and then start anew in another city. This will be quite difficult for me, for someone who is very well sheltered and sometimes spoiled by my parents, being their only daughter. I also know that it will not be easy for my father if I am away from home. I understand his feelings and worries, but I need to go away from this place, in order for me to completely move on. I've done this before, although I've only managed to live away from home for 5 months. This time, since I am already old enough, I think I can manage to live independently. I wont return home until I put all things in their proper places, live the life I want to live, and I can finally face the people from the past.
I hope everything's going to be all right, and everything will eventually fall into place. The only thing I want in this life is to make my life happier and more productive.