I don't know.
I haven't been able to let things out for days now. I wanted to but the words just wouldn't come out. I'm rarely rendered speechless and when I am, it's most likely because I don't know what to say or what to do with myself. Oh dear. Here goes.
That ride with you has got to be the most awkward one I've ever had to take. We used to talk, you know. What has reduced us to what we are now? Sometimes I think we're better off not talking but is it so weird if the silence deafens me more than the raucous that we used to make? We used to talk things through. We used to be really good friends. I wanted to ask you how you were and I did. It took all my energy to do just that and all you said was that you were okay. No explanations whatsoever. Am I that much of a nobody that I don't even deserve explanations now? All I have now are questions and since you never give me answers, I guess that's all I'll ever have, right? Maybe that hour together on the road was given to us to start the process of fixing this friendship. I guess it was an hour wasted on trivial stuff and directions, pleasantries and beating around the bush. Know that I've stopped waiting for you. It's tiring me too much.
It's a good thing I've calmed down enough to write this much.:)
That ride with you has got to be the most awkward one I've ever had to take. We used to talk, you know. What has reduced us to what we are now? Sometimes I think we're better off not talking but is it so weird if the silence deafens me more than the raucous that we used to make? We used to talk things through. We used to be really good friends. I wanted to ask you how you were and I did. It took all my energy to do just that and all you said was that you were okay. No explanations whatsoever. Am I that much of a nobody that I don't even deserve explanations now? All I have now are questions and since you never give me answers, I guess that's all I'll ever have, right? Maybe that hour together on the road was given to us to start the process of fixing this friendship. I guess it was an hour wasted on trivial stuff and directions, pleasantries and beating around the bush. Know that I've stopped waiting for you. It's tiring me too much.
It's a good thing I've calmed down enough to write this much.:)