It's not there anymore.

[heyerruh]

Yesterday was probably one of the longest days the block ever had.

I hugged everyone and asked most of them not to leave me. I'm a clingy person, I know. I really hate it when someone leaves but like every single time that someone does, I cope and deal. What else is there for me to do, right? People say that I must be happy for the person for my sadness will make it harder for them to leave but really, it just couldn't be that way. Reality states that you can't be happy for someone just because it would be better for them.

I'm sorry, Yela, but I really don't want you to go.:( We had our time back in first semester and I thought we were still going to have it in the future. I guess I was mistaken, wasn't I? We promised we'd bond again. Somehow I thought it would happen. I guess we could bond online, right?:-< I'm going to miss you but at least, in Australia, you wouldn't be able to hear me swear so much that you just want to get a priest and make me confess. College would just be weird without you, I can already feel it.

Somehow, your hug doesn't feel as comforting as it used to. I guess, I could deal with you gone now. I never wanted to be able to but well.