007. 7 bad days in a row and going strong
It would take me way too long to explain all of the details of the 8,000 things that went wrong this week so maybe I'll just list them.
- Last Friday night: Everyone in my dorm & Sean was wasted, but Sean and my roommate got into a horrible argument. I was very upset about this and cried hysterically (because I was ridiculously drunk) for a while, then Sean took us home and I'm soo lucky I didn't die.
- Saturday night: Went to a party in North Haven for a little bit but it sucked. Went back to school but avoided my dorm room, but went to visit friends who were visiting in some random girls' room... so we all went there but Sean had a thing of Captain's in his hand when an RA & housing director walked by and saw him standing in the hall... so the whole room got writte up and I got written up once for me and once for Sean (my guest on campus). The rum got poured out :( ..and I felt like it was my fault all these innocent people got written up even tho its not a big deal. Went to Sean's but forgot my purse at school. THAT sucked.
- Then throughout the week awkwardness just began to set in and I stayed away from my room because of what happened with Sean and my roommate.
- Last night some people from school were trying to tell me that Sean cheats on me, which I know is crap. This insane girl who just transferred who I don't know is making ridiculous accusations just because she saw Sean's number on my friend's arm.... I WROTE IT THERE the other night because I told her to put it in her phone book and call Sean to give her a ride if she ever got stuck at the bus stop again like she did the other day. Then all these rumors started and there's still more but I'm not gonna let people poison my mind any more.
- Sean was upset about all of this because he knows that if I really thought he was cheating on me I would break up with him. And he was just quiet and sad and all un-Sean and that made me so sad. But its all okay now.
- At 2:40 PM today I got a letter and opened it about a conduct meeting because of last Friday night.... the conduct meeting was at 2:30 so I RAN down there and the lady was really, really nice but my "punishment" is pretty bad because the guest policy at my school that "i broke" is so strict. I got 2 months probation which is NOTHING. You run into drunk people every night at my school who are like HAHA i'm on probation. I have to design a poster to hang up about the guest policies.. lol. But the worst, which I broke down and cried right there is that Sean isn't allowed on campus anymore. The lady I talked to didn't make the decision, someone else higher up did but shes gonna try to fix it given the situation. And when I spoke to the RA on my hall who I really like she was saying how he's such a good guest all the time and she's definitely going to mention it. And the other lady's gonna e-mail me telling me how long Sean can't come for, or if its "indefinite". It sucks really bad at first, but I realized that its what me and sean have been doing all week cause he won't stay in my room lately. And we still spent every night and the same amount of time together. I'm sick of people saying it will be "good" for us and for me to go out and make more friends that are girls. All these girls are just malicious its hard to find good friends. Jees.
- At the time of my meeting, Sean was on his way to get me. And I was crying and couldn't even call him and tell him so I sent him a message telling him he wasn't allowed on campus.Then I guess he left and I couldn't get ahold of him for like 3 hours. THAT sucked. So I went to my room and talked to all my roomates and things are fine with, I mean.. its the same as before if that's any good, which it wasn't. I stayed pretty strong and didn't freak out because I knew me and Sean would get through it. And at like 5 he picked me up and we drove around and listened to our songs [Brad Paisley- She's Everything, Clint Black and Lisa something- When I said I Do] and hugged for so long.. Getting through stuff sucks but with everything our relationship is getting a lot stronger. It was amazing though when I was with him again... the most amazing feeling. I don't know what I would do without my best friend. He gets me through everything.
Umm then I had a night class tonight 6:30-9 psychology. Ugh lol. Oh well its better than getting up at 8 am tues & thurs. And then Sean picked me up and now hes sleeping on me. And now I need to unwind and watch Desperate Housewives. I just want to spend time with my family this weekend... the people who ALWAYS cheer me up and make everying awesome.
- Last Friday night: Everyone in my dorm & Sean was wasted, but Sean and my roommate got into a horrible argument. I was very upset about this and cried hysterically (because I was ridiculously drunk) for a while, then Sean took us home and I'm soo lucky I didn't die.
- Saturday night: Went to a party in North Haven for a little bit but it sucked. Went back to school but avoided my dorm room, but went to visit friends who were visiting in some random girls' room... so we all went there but Sean had a thing of Captain's in his hand when an RA & housing director walked by and saw him standing in the hall... so the whole room got writte up and I got written up once for me and once for Sean (my guest on campus). The rum got poured out :( ..and I felt like it was my fault all these innocent people got written up even tho its not a big deal. Went to Sean's but forgot my purse at school. THAT sucked.
- Then throughout the week awkwardness just began to set in and I stayed away from my room because of what happened with Sean and my roommate.
- Last night some people from school were trying to tell me that Sean cheats on me, which I know is crap. This insane girl who just transferred who I don't know is making ridiculous accusations just because she saw Sean's number on my friend's arm.... I WROTE IT THERE the other night because I told her to put it in her phone book and call Sean to give her a ride if she ever got stuck at the bus stop again like she did the other day. Then all these rumors started and there's still more but I'm not gonna let people poison my mind any more.
- Sean was upset about all of this because he knows that if I really thought he was cheating on me I would break up with him. And he was just quiet and sad and all un-Sean and that made me so sad. But its all okay now.
- At 2:40 PM today I got a letter and opened it about a conduct meeting because of last Friday night.... the conduct meeting was at 2:30 so I RAN down there and the lady was really, really nice but my "punishment" is pretty bad because the guest policy at my school that "i broke" is so strict. I got 2 months probation which is NOTHING. You run into drunk people every night at my school who are like HAHA i'm on probation. I have to design a poster to hang up about the guest policies.. lol. But the worst, which I broke down and cried right there is that Sean isn't allowed on campus anymore. The lady I talked to didn't make the decision, someone else higher up did but shes gonna try to fix it given the situation. And when I spoke to the RA on my hall who I really like she was saying how he's such a good guest all the time and she's definitely going to mention it. And the other lady's gonna e-mail me telling me how long Sean can't come for, or if its "indefinite". It sucks really bad at first, but I realized that its what me and sean have been doing all week cause he won't stay in my room lately. And we still spent every night and the same amount of time together. I'm sick of people saying it will be "good" for us and for me to go out and make more friends that are girls. All these girls are just malicious its hard to find good friends. Jees.
- At the time of my meeting, Sean was on his way to get me. And I was crying and couldn't even call him and tell him so I sent him a message telling him he wasn't allowed on campus.Then I guess he left and I couldn't get ahold of him for like 3 hours. THAT sucked. So I went to my room and talked to all my roomates and things are fine with, I mean.. its the same as before if that's any good, which it wasn't. I stayed pretty strong and didn't freak out because I knew me and Sean would get through it. And at like 5 he picked me up and we drove around and listened to our songs [Brad Paisley- She's Everything, Clint Black and Lisa something- When I said I Do] and hugged for so long.. Getting through stuff sucks but with everything our relationship is getting a lot stronger. It was amazing though when I was with him again... the most amazing feeling. I don't know what I would do without my best friend. He gets me through everything.
Umm then I had a night class tonight 6:30-9 psychology. Ugh lol. Oh well its better than getting up at 8 am tues & thurs. And then Sean picked me up and now hes sleeping on me. And now I need to unwind and watch Desperate Housewives. I just want to spend time with my family this weekend... the people who ALWAYS cheer me up and make everying awesome.