"aNd NoW eVeRyOnE iS gOnE"
it was good. it was different. the stage was empty. it wasn't right.
there was a "hole in our souls."
i don't get it. it was fine. we were fine. now apparently its fallen apart.
and i don't know why its my fault. i don't know what changed.
i don't know how to fix it.
i'm so scared for them. for my boys. i miss them. and i hope someone's taking care of them.
school starts in a few days. i don't think i'm handling it well. i wasnt supposed to grow up. i used to sing it around the house..."i don't want to grow up." i still feel like a little kid. not like i'm gonna be nineteen and going to college. that only happens in movies.
and i'm not ready for you to leave. not after this year. not after this summer. not after the past few weeks. it's gonna be too much. it's gonna be the worst. it's gonna be the last.
it's gonna be the end. because that'll mean its really over. armageddon. off to better things.
i never really updated with everything i did this summer. i will someday. but for now i'm thinking.
thinking i'm not gonna survive this year. i'm staying here. but i'm not ready. so many left. and i'm afraid of losing the ones that are still here...if i haven't lost them already.
ugh. dad my gus.
And now everyone is gone
To a place that won't be home
Can they keep their family strong?
Will they make it on their own?
And we'll be standing when you're gone
And we'll be heard again
We missed our chance but not for long
I know somehow we will hold on we'll be here
When you're gone