Re: monsters [17/17]
anonymous
May 20 2010, 22:10:25 UTC
This...this made me feel sad, scared, tired, everything Arthur felt up to the point he passed out. It's so well written every emotion comes across.
What I love most is Matthew. Dear God Matthew. Arthur, Arthur, he realised it, didn't he? It's the more quiet ones who notice more. And Francis and his ways of showing concerns, showing that he cares - visiting Arthur even though he'd been warned not to, the message in the answering machine, and being the first to hold America, knowing the strength of that boy.
Still, I love Matthew the most, because he's right, he's so so right.
It's not Alfred nations and readers should look into, it's Arthur. He's the one who's all sorts of wrong & twisted. And the ending made it so, so stark.
'deranged eyes and a shit-eating grin', the same things Alfred first entered the meeting/conference room with. The loop. Cyclical. That forgiveness is not a happy end, and Alfred has every right to be scared because he'd broken Arthur for sure, not somewhere physical, but somewhere deep inside, too deep.
And that...that scene where little Alfred tells Arthur he loves him is not a respite, it's the seal of doom. Because Arthur has it all backwards - in his mind, the string of accidents, the abuse, they are all dreams, and what's real is him and little America in that golden field. Arthur has confirmed and acknowledged his 'secret', sealing his resolution to receive, receive, receive, if anything ever comes again from Alfred. Sometimes, I feel that he wasn't stopping things out of fear, but also because Arthur feels any Alfred is better than lack of Alfred. It's hinted in the way you write of his thoughts on the loneliness in his house.
'everything's going back to normal'. But what's normal? have all those violence become normal to Arthur?
(I actually thank you for the last three words, that 'scared and terrified'. If you didn't write it, I wouldn't have gotten the loop. Well, may be I would, but not as strongly)
I hope I am reading the messages you wish to convey right, authoranon. The title is so apt 'monsters' - there are more than one. I don't think the deranged eyes hints that they will reverse roles completely, though role-switching has happened: Alfred saying it's his fault, Alfred being scared and terrified, and Arthur being guileless, 'as if he didn't understand why Alfred wasn't talking'. How cyclical do you want this to be, authoranon? Will Arthur sink deeper to his masochism or will he be the abuser later?
It's too heartbreaking. I cried almost all the way through. And I may have an idea of who you are, authoranon. I crave for a final happy ending (Alfred loving Arthur and taking care of him) instead of an open-ended path to a cyclical never-ending loop of role-reversing misery or relapse and continuation of abuse till Arthur finally dies, nevertheless, I am...deeply moved by this.
P.S. please reply to my theories? I love it when I get what authors are trying to convey :)
What I love most is Matthew. Dear God Matthew. Arthur, Arthur, he realised it, didn't he? It's the more quiet ones who notice more. And Francis and his ways of showing concerns, showing that he cares - visiting Arthur even though he'd been warned not to, the message in the answering machine, and being the first to hold America, knowing the strength of that boy.
Still, I love Matthew the most, because he's right, he's so so right.
It's not Alfred nations and readers should look into, it's Arthur. He's the one who's all sorts of wrong & twisted. And the ending made it so, so stark.
'deranged eyes and a shit-eating grin', the same things Alfred first entered the meeting/conference room with. The loop. Cyclical. That forgiveness is not a happy end, and Alfred has every right to be scared because he'd broken Arthur for sure, not somewhere physical, but somewhere deep inside, too deep.
And that...that scene where little Alfred tells Arthur he loves him is not a respite, it's the seal of doom. Because Arthur has it all backwards - in his mind, the string of accidents, the abuse, they are all dreams, and what's real is him and little America in that golden field. Arthur has confirmed and acknowledged his 'secret', sealing his resolution to receive, receive, receive, if anything ever comes again from Alfred. Sometimes, I feel that he wasn't stopping things out of fear, but also because Arthur feels any Alfred is better than lack of Alfred. It's hinted in the way you write of his thoughts on the loneliness in his house.
'everything's going back to normal'. But what's normal? have all those violence become normal to Arthur?
(I actually thank you for the last three words, that 'scared and terrified'. If you didn't write it, I wouldn't have gotten the loop. Well, may be I would, but not as strongly)
I hope I am reading the messages you wish to convey right, authoranon. The title is so apt 'monsters' - there are more than one. I don't think the deranged eyes hints that they will reverse roles completely, though role-switching has happened: Alfred saying it's his fault, Alfred being scared and terrified, and Arthur being guileless, 'as if he didn't understand why Alfred wasn't talking'. How cyclical do you want this to be, authoranon? Will Arthur sink deeper to his masochism or will he be the abuser later?
It's too heartbreaking. I cried almost all the way through. And I may have an idea of who you are, authoranon. I crave for a final happy ending (Alfred loving Arthur and taking care of him) instead of an open-ended path to a cyclical never-ending loop of role-reversing misery or relapse and continuation of abuse till Arthur finally dies, nevertheless, I am...deeply moved by this.
P.S. please reply to my theories? I love it when I get what authors are trying to convey :)
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I also had tears in my eyes, of how love can be such a boundless and 'careless' thing.
Wonderful fill anon. ; u ; <3
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