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Guess what? I woke up today at 2.19pm! FAINTS. I couldn't sleep until around 5am, for some strange odd reason. I think the gloominess of the skies is affecting me; I tend to sleep A LOT MORE.I don't feel down or sad, just plain "I wanna sleep" syndrome.lol
I went for the leadership seminar yesterday and interestingly, I found out that God was speaking to me, not about being a leader, but about my own personal struggles.He made me see how my own struggles have trapped me into bondage and that I must be set free from those struggles.I had a good time yesterday in general, learning about God and how I was reminded once again,he is still my ichiban.We also had a centre talk and what my friend said was right; his BS people are really vocal, which is good.though the talk in general was awkward, like you sense that there is something so very wrong in our centre, yet none of us were really able to articulate to Justin clearly what exactly went wrong.There was a few tugging moments here and there,and I thought that what was said was pretty good, until Kiran told me that actually they had this talk on convention, so technically speaking, we are back to square one.Being a leader is tough, you got to confront stuff that people wouldn't want to.No wonder God says to Joshua, when he took over Moses, "Be strong and be very courageous". Yes, leaders must be strong, courageous, yet he must also be loving and not overbearing.
But I think the most important quality of a leader is this:
In order to help people, You must be free of peoples' opinions of you.
Only then can you be strong, courageous, loving and not overbearing. even if people have negative opinions of you, you won't get bitter, forceful, and you are able to love them and guide them into the right path.You won't allow negative opinions to affect you.and even when people have good opinions of you, you won't be flattered and will remember to give glory to God, who is the original author of all our successes, instead of yourself.
After I got home yesterday,Kiran and me spent the night doing personality tests.I did one for her, she did one for me, and we realised how different we actually perceive ourselves in comparison to how others think of us. It's fun doing personality tests, but I have learnt to always take them with a pinch of salt.After all, my true identity is in Christ,not some tests that was conjured by men or even women.
oh yea,I actually managed to detoxify myself from anime and manga for 2 weeks.but there's another obssession that I have right now: KRISPY KREME. Ever since, Johannies brought back krispy kreme from melbourne, I have been obssessed, like i want to eat nothing else but donuts, no wait, not just donuts, but KRISPY KREME donuts~~~~~~. It's insane I tell you.and now I am trying to detoxify myself from donuts, after all they are, to my great shock, DEEP FRIED.They are more unhealthy than chocolate, which I am consuming everyday of my life right now, ever since, the cold winds set in.
I have been having weird dreams again and of all the HOT guys that I could dream of, I dreamt of akanishi jin, who tried to make me and kiran part of his harem.lol.But the most disturbing ones are the ones of lifts.I always dream, on a pretty regular basis of lifts.Like I will press the level button where I wanna go, but then it doesn't stop at the floor I want,instead it stops an random floors and I am so afraid of the door opening, because I was afraid that some monster would come into the lift, or when the lift door opens, I witness a murder or something like that.Freaking creepy.Freaking scary.It's worse that the dreams that I have of falling.Cos in lifts, you can't run; you are stuck and it lingers....*shivers*
School starts tomorrow, but I don't feel ready.I can't wait for this semester to end. I am losing motivation to study again, somehow.Perhaps, it's because I am not really enjoying what I am taking right now.But then again, time flies, so yea, I can survive man!lol
I went for the leadership seminar yesterday and interestingly, I found out that God was speaking to me, not about being a leader, but about my own personal struggles.He made me see how my own struggles have trapped me into bondage and that I must be set free from those struggles.I had a good time yesterday in general, learning about God and how I was reminded once again,he is still my ichiban.We also had a centre talk and what my friend said was right; his BS people are really vocal, which is good.though the talk in general was awkward, like you sense that there is something so very wrong in our centre, yet none of us were really able to articulate to Justin clearly what exactly went wrong.There was a few tugging moments here and there,and I thought that what was said was pretty good, until Kiran told me that actually they had this talk on convention, so technically speaking, we are back to square one.Being a leader is tough, you got to confront stuff that people wouldn't want to.No wonder God says to Joshua, when he took over Moses, "Be strong and be very courageous". Yes, leaders must be strong, courageous, yet he must also be loving and not overbearing.
But I think the most important quality of a leader is this:
In order to help people, You must be free of peoples' opinions of you.
Only then can you be strong, courageous, loving and not overbearing. even if people have negative opinions of you, you won't get bitter, forceful, and you are able to love them and guide them into the right path.You won't allow negative opinions to affect you.and even when people have good opinions of you, you won't be flattered and will remember to give glory to God, who is the original author of all our successes, instead of yourself.
After I got home yesterday,Kiran and me spent the night doing personality tests.I did one for her, she did one for me, and we realised how different we actually perceive ourselves in comparison to how others think of us. It's fun doing personality tests, but I have learnt to always take them with a pinch of salt.After all, my true identity is in Christ,not some tests that was conjured by men or even women.
oh yea,I actually managed to detoxify myself from anime and manga for 2 weeks.but there's another obssession that I have right now: KRISPY KREME. Ever since, Johannies brought back krispy kreme from melbourne, I have been obssessed, like i want to eat nothing else but donuts, no wait, not just donuts, but KRISPY KREME donuts~~~~~~. It's insane I tell you.and now I am trying to detoxify myself from donuts, after all they are, to my great shock, DEEP FRIED.They are more unhealthy than chocolate, which I am consuming everyday of my life right now, ever since, the cold winds set in.
I have been having weird dreams again and of all the HOT guys that I could dream of, I dreamt of akanishi jin, who tried to make me and kiran part of his harem.lol.But the most disturbing ones are the ones of lifts.I always dream, on a pretty regular basis of lifts.Like I will press the level button where I wanna go, but then it doesn't stop at the floor I want,instead it stops an random floors and I am so afraid of the door opening, because I was afraid that some monster would come into the lift, or when the lift door opens, I witness a murder or something like that.Freaking creepy.Freaking scary.It's worse that the dreams that I have of falling.Cos in lifts, you can't run; you are stuck and it lingers....*shivers*
School starts tomorrow, but I don't feel ready.I can't wait for this semester to end. I am losing motivation to study again, somehow.Perhaps, it's because I am not really enjoying what I am taking right now.But then again, time flies, so yea, I can survive man!lol