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I woke up this morning, feeling extremely lazy because of the gloomy skies and the nice cool winds that greeted me the moment I was conscious that I was awake. Sometimes, when I looked at the weather, I always felt that the weather shows God's feelings of the day.I remembered I didn't do too well for my O'levels, of course being in a academic-driven society, I cried my eyes out, thinking that there will be no future for me, and I remembered vividly how when I was crying, it was raining too. From that time onwards, I always noticed that every time the results of the national exams are released, it will somehow rain, as if God is crying and comforting those people who didn't do that well.So i figured that today's gloom is because someone, somewhere is feeling down, and God is comforting him/her by "crying" with him/her.
I logged on to msn today and talked to a friend of mine and then by his prompting, I read his blog.Although I am happy for him that his ads are finally up, with gorgeous colours that blended so nicely with the black background, I read something that dropped my jaw.My friend was writing about how as Christians, we should keep on track.Ever since the easter camp, God has been nudging me and opening my eyes to a lot of things, I actually had a gorwing passion for missions, to help people, when in the past, I would not want to listen about missions, because at that time, I thought it wasn't my calling.After reading the entry,I realised that God has things for us to do, at his appointed season and time.Things now may not be things in the future.I have my personal struggles too, which my close friends would have known, and I am actually glad to say that, by the grace of God, I have become a stronger person.Sometimes I take things, wonderful things that I have in my life for granted, and then sorta "backslide" and forget to give thanks to my God who gave me these things.God has also made me realised my recurring problem; in the way I dealt with my situations, I have allowed pride to enter it again.When God showed me my failure, I initially felt condemned, but I remembered what the bible says:
"There is, therefore, now no condemnation".
I felt humbled by what God has shown me about so many things.I am praying to God to help me deal with my pride issue.Also, interestingly, as much as I adore my church here in Adelaide, I felt the need to change church, for some odd reason.I am still praying if that is what God wants me to do.strange isn't it?
And even though the situations that I have to face right now seems so helpless and doesn't seem to be bearing any fruit, but I believed with all of my heart, that the Lord is able to turn water into wine.
I remembered my pastor saying "Do not judge God by circumstances, because circumstances can change".
And when he has brought me through these things, may I always remember, it was not because of me, my efforts, my good personalities, my ability to perceive things that helped me overcome.It is the Lord, who did all these things because he loves me.very dearly.
I logged on to msn today and talked to a friend of mine and then by his prompting, I read his blog.Although I am happy for him that his ads are finally up, with gorgeous colours that blended so nicely with the black background, I read something that dropped my jaw.My friend was writing about how as Christians, we should keep on track.Ever since the easter camp, God has been nudging me and opening my eyes to a lot of things, I actually had a gorwing passion for missions, to help people, when in the past, I would not want to listen about missions, because at that time, I thought it wasn't my calling.After reading the entry,I realised that God has things for us to do, at his appointed season and time.Things now may not be things in the future.I have my personal struggles too, which my close friends would have known, and I am actually glad to say that, by the grace of God, I have become a stronger person.Sometimes I take things, wonderful things that I have in my life for granted, and then sorta "backslide" and forget to give thanks to my God who gave me these things.God has also made me realised my recurring problem; in the way I dealt with my situations, I have allowed pride to enter it again.When God showed me my failure, I initially felt condemned, but I remembered what the bible says:
"There is, therefore, now no condemnation".
I felt humbled by what God has shown me about so many things.I am praying to God to help me deal with my pride issue.Also, interestingly, as much as I adore my church here in Adelaide, I felt the need to change church, for some odd reason.I am still praying if that is what God wants me to do.strange isn't it?
And even though the situations that I have to face right now seems so helpless and doesn't seem to be bearing any fruit, but I believed with all of my heart, that the Lord is able to turn water into wine.
I remembered my pastor saying "Do not judge God by circumstances, because circumstances can change".
And when he has brought me through these things, may I always remember, it was not because of me, my efforts, my good personalities, my ability to perceive things that helped me overcome.It is the Lord, who did all these things because he loves me.very dearly.