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I am so tired right now i worked almost 8 hours on my feet and then came home and worked on cleaning my room (what a disaster lol) and now im in a really bitchy mood and i kinda feel like doing something but kinda don't. i am a fucked up loser. i miss zach which is whack.. i can't let myself get wrapped up in him again cause it only causes pain. i mean im really content and happy without a guy in my life. im kinda pimpin it which is a little stressful. i decided i don't want to tie myself down at the moment unless i find someone i am really into and who is into me enough without getting on my nerves. zach is obviously not the best option for this. i figured out my problem everytime i find a guy all he wants to do is sit and make out all night and do physical shit sorry but that is not the coolest thing ever i want someone who can care about me and chill with me and go places with me without requiring me to be their entertainment. see i finally figure dout the problem with zach and jason and marky marc.. they all just want to do physical stuff everynight or everytime we hang out. we should at least do soemthing first before getting to that 2-4 hours a night of that everynight does not form a relationship. now maybe i can find someone who will satisfy all these needs lol or i can just continue pimping it!