I walked into the clinic and was told I wasn't flagged today - usually I have to talk to Barb every morning on Wednesdays, before I get my dose for that day. But today I wasn't flagged, and it instantly gave me that panicky feeling where my face flushes hot and my brain feels like oil puddles and television static ( Read more... )

Barb, my counselor at the methadone clinic, who knows everything about me, told me she decided to put in her two weeks notice. FFFFFUCK ME. I don't handle change well, especially on this level ( Read more... )

I've now been attending a methadone clinic for almost 7 months in a row! This is the longest stretch of time I've ever been in treatment ( Read more... )