Life
I havent posted in awhile. This could be for many reasons for example my browser kept crashing every time I opened a new post or the fact that I feel like I am talking to myself half the time. I guess the point of this LJ isnt to get feedback but to kinda let your feelings out. I have had a very flaky few months starting from December as you could tell from my december post it was quite a tough ride.
One main point I really want to get down here is the comparison between life now and life when I was in lets go back to 11th grade. You could not even say that this time was a long time ago. I feel as though I have grown quite a bit since then. Since 11th grade I have been in 3 relations. 2 were not really serious but the last one has brought me up till now. I think one of the reason I started typing on this was to let my feelings out mainly toward relationships. I think my focus was to find a relationship but now that ive found them its been both a wonderful and painful experience. The difference between what I am facing now to what I was facing then is the timing. I see myself being successful career wise. I can see myself moving to either NYC or Westchester county and enjoying life. However a lot of my time is spent waiting for that day to happen. I think the problem with me is that I overthink things way too much. This can be good because it means before I act I will think long and hard but it also means that I can ruin certain aspects of life. I really got off track with this but the other thought was how easy life was with high school. I didnt have to make a decision that didnt havea definitive answer.
Thats it for now
One main point I really want to get down here is the comparison between life now and life when I was in lets go back to 11th grade. You could not even say that this time was a long time ago. I feel as though I have grown quite a bit since then. Since 11th grade I have been in 3 relations. 2 were not really serious but the last one has brought me up till now. I think one of the reason I started typing on this was to let my feelings out mainly toward relationships. I think my focus was to find a relationship but now that ive found them its been both a wonderful and painful experience. The difference between what I am facing now to what I was facing then is the timing. I see myself being successful career wise. I can see myself moving to either NYC or Westchester county and enjoying life. However a lot of my time is spent waiting for that day to happen. I think the problem with me is that I overthink things way too much. This can be good because it means before I act I will think long and hard but it also means that I can ruin certain aspects of life. I really got off track with this but the other thought was how easy life was with high school. I didnt have to make a decision that didnt havea definitive answer.
Thats it for now