I'm alive
I have been taking some time to get used to my birthday. It was the 5th and to be honest I did nothing. But that is what I wanted. It felt like a victory, rather then a mild-stone to be celebrated. I feel old and young all at once. Weird and sad.
Anyway to occupy my time I finaly started reading twilight. I LOVE the book so much more then the movie! The book is so much more romantic. I miss teenage romance. Anyhow, I will start the final book breaking dawn this week. Then I will have to find something else to help me escape into a fantasy world.
I am doing well. I am tired a lot. But mostly I am just happy. Even when I am tired and can't stand another moment awake I am happy I am here. I am happy to still be fighting. I am happy to still be enduring. I am happy that I survived this year and I am hopeful that next year at this time I will be better.
Anyway to occupy my time I finaly started reading twilight. I LOVE the book so much more then the movie! The book is so much more romantic. I miss teenage romance. Anyhow, I will start the final book breaking dawn this week. Then I will have to find something else to help me escape into a fantasy world.
I am doing well. I am tired a lot. But mostly I am just happy. Even when I am tired and can't stand another moment awake I am happy I am here. I am happy to still be fighting. I am happy to still be enduring. I am happy that I survived this year and I am hopeful that next year at this time I will be better.