Shittish day
I feel shitty right now. I think I'm getting sick. Ugh. I fuckin' hate getting sick.
Today was a snow day. What an odd phenomenon for October. Yay! Whatever. It still didn't make much of a fuckin' difference. Well, I guess it sort of did, but fuck it. I feel so fuckin' shitty right now.
I'm sick of my mom, and I feel extremely guilty for it. She seriously knows how to make me fee like shit. It's probably just me, though. What she says about me is always true. She makes me want to kill myself. It's probably just me, though. I'm such a fuckin' retard. Ugh. I feel extremely shitty right now, no thanks to probably being sick >.<.
All I did today was go on my computer, sleep, and watch TV. WTF?! I woke up at like 1:00 or something after waking up a bunch of other times from bad dreams. Whatever.
I've been suppressing my emotions a lot lately. I just have no one to tell them to. I don't trust telling them to anyone. The only people I've really trusted are the people on the Internet, and now I no longer even trust anyone on the Internet. I've been getting called a whiner a lot on the Internet lately, so I think that shutting the fuck up is the best thing to do. If I told anyone in real life, they'd just call me crazy and shit. My mom has even called me mental and sick. How can I trust anyone else? I used to trust someone on the Internet, but I'm afraid now from a conversation we had a few months ago. I now don't trust ANYONE with my emotions. Oh, well. It's not like it really matters much. I wish I could fuckin' die right now.
Anyways, I better get to bed right now. I need to get up for school in the morning. I fuckin' hate school. Nobody there'd care if I dropped dead right in front of them. They must think I'm some sort of freak or something. I think most of them think I'm psychotic or something. I used to get bullied a lot, but it barely happens now. It'll probably start up again, though. Even if it doesn't, I know they still hate me. I better go now, so I can get up in the morning, not that I WANT to get up in the morning. I wish I could stay home tomorrow, but I already have four or five days out.
Today was a snow day. What an odd phenomenon for October. Yay! Whatever. It still didn't make much of a fuckin' difference. Well, I guess it sort of did, but fuck it. I feel so fuckin' shitty right now.
I'm sick of my mom, and I feel extremely guilty for it. She seriously knows how to make me fee like shit. It's probably just me, though. What she says about me is always true. She makes me want to kill myself. It's probably just me, though. I'm such a fuckin' retard. Ugh. I feel extremely shitty right now, no thanks to probably being sick >.<.
All I did today was go on my computer, sleep, and watch TV. WTF?! I woke up at like 1:00 or something after waking up a bunch of other times from bad dreams. Whatever.
I've been suppressing my emotions a lot lately. I just have no one to tell them to. I don't trust telling them to anyone. The only people I've really trusted are the people on the Internet, and now I no longer even trust anyone on the Internet. I've been getting called a whiner a lot on the Internet lately, so I think that shutting the fuck up is the best thing to do. If I told anyone in real life, they'd just call me crazy and shit. My mom has even called me mental and sick. How can I trust anyone else? I used to trust someone on the Internet, but I'm afraid now from a conversation we had a few months ago. I now don't trust ANYONE with my emotions. Oh, well. It's not like it really matters much. I wish I could fuckin' die right now.
Anyways, I better get to bed right now. I need to get up for school in the morning. I fuckin' hate school. Nobody there'd care if I dropped dead right in front of them. They must think I'm some sort of freak or something. I think most of them think I'm psychotic or something. I used to get bullied a lot, but it barely happens now. It'll probably start up again, though. Even if it doesn't, I know they still hate me. I better go now, so I can get up in the morning, not that I WANT to get up in the morning. I wish I could stay home tomorrow, but I already have four or five days out.