all work and no play
Currently I have school Mondays to Wednesdays, hospital work Thursdays and Fridays and pub work Saturdays and Sundays with gym stuff sprinkled throughout. You'd figure I'd be crazy stressed out having to wake up very early and not having a day off but actually, it's not all that bad. I think I have a theory of why it feels not all that bad.
I recently discovered that I don't really mind working and I can endure quite a bit of workload without shutting down (by Canadian standards, which is actually not THAT much in reality). BOREDOM burns me out and shuts me down quite quickly though and nothing makes me bored faster than having to do the same thing for a prolonged period of time. I am in my element when I am allowed to buffet through life and nothing wrecks me down more than to have just one thing to do. I think that's why things aren't so bad for me right now. Even though I am working all days of the week, I am actually doing three fairly different things; school, hospital and pub-work. Because I am not doing any of them throughout the entire week, it kind of feels like I am taking a break from each of them, even if I am doing some other kind of work in the meantime.
As with all things, it's not without it's problems though. Sometimes I feel so fulfilled that I actually allow myself to slack off on fairly important things. Like, when an exam is coming up I catch myself thinking "oh you know, I work so hard, I deserve to a a bit of a break tonight". Maybe I do deserve a break, but exams don't care if I do or not, right? I am going to have to prevent work from one thing becoming an excuse to slack off on another work thing.
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Not watching my savings account bleed out slowly anymore is another incentive. I simply cannot allow my monthly accounting to project downwards anymore.
I recently discovered that I don't really mind working and I can endure quite a bit of workload without shutting down (by Canadian standards, which is actually not THAT much in reality). BOREDOM burns me out and shuts me down quite quickly though and nothing makes me bored faster than having to do the same thing for a prolonged period of time. I am in my element when I am allowed to buffet through life and nothing wrecks me down more than to have just one thing to do. I think that's why things aren't so bad for me right now. Even though I am working all days of the week, I am actually doing three fairly different things; school, hospital and pub-work. Because I am not doing any of them throughout the entire week, it kind of feels like I am taking a break from each of them, even if I am doing some other kind of work in the meantime.
As with all things, it's not without it's problems though. Sometimes I feel so fulfilled that I actually allow myself to slack off on fairly important things. Like, when an exam is coming up I catch myself thinking "oh you know, I work so hard, I deserve to a a bit of a break tonight". Maybe I do deserve a break, but exams don't care if I do or not, right? I am going to have to prevent work from one thing becoming an excuse to slack off on another work thing.
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Not watching my savings account bleed out slowly anymore is another incentive. I simply cannot allow my monthly accounting to project downwards anymore.