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Feb 14, 2009 21:22

This is totally excellent.

No drinking = spend less money.
Spend less money = more money saved for my trip.
More money saved for my trip = being able to see more countries.
Being able to see more countries = more time spent abroad.
More time spent abroad = Kasen becoming even more awesome.

It's a win-win situation, lads!

V-Day. Kitty left me a hilarious wall post on Facebook, it cracked me up so much :) Lol, Kitty you're adorkable. Josh wrote me a retardedly cool one-verse rhyme and gave me a gift-thing. He's awesome. Thanks for all the V-Day wishes via LJ, Facebook, text messages and e-mail. I hope y'all had a good one with your lover, family, friends, randoms, pets, food, inanimate objects, ducks...

All the single people in the world should get together on this day and have a massive orgy. Definitely. Seriously though, I don't understand why single people would feel particularly bad on this day, seeing as it's exactly the same as any other day in the year. V-Day is over-glorified (I thought everybody knew that?). Unless you feel bad about being single every. single. day. of. the. year. (which would be very sad), today should not have caused you to feel any different. It pisses me off when single people are like: "Oh, woe is me, I'm alone on V-Day and couples keep flaunting their love in front of me...*sob*." For fuck's sake, get over yourself. There are couples in love everywhere, everyday. Valentine's Day isn't even a real holiday, it's a 'money hungry corporations wanting you to spend, and making you feel bad if you don't' day. Every other day in the year is equally as significant, important and love-filled as February 14. Spoil your lovers on any other day BUT V-Day, I dare you! At the risk of sound cliché again: if you're single, don't hate on couples and don't hate on V-Day, try to recognise that it's not a huge deal, so stop making it a huge deal.

Expect nothing and you'll never be disappointed. Bitter singles should totally take that quote as werrrd on V-Day.

I'm torn between the Gold Coast and Sydney again. This happens every holiday. I haven't even booked my flight yet and I'm supposed to be leaving on the 22nd. I was supposed to be flying down with Josh (he goes to USYD) and his friend, but I couldn't commit. I cannot believe it has been three months. Time was going at a normal pace all the way up to New Year's, then bang! 2009 arrived and the last month and a half disappeared in the blink of an eye. I don't know if I want to go back for O-Week anymore. I know I'll have a helluva awesome time if I do, but while I'm still up here I'd rather spend a couple more days with my family and you lot. BLARGH! I have to suck it up. Suck it up, girl!

I watched the latest episodes of Skins (S03E04) and Ugly Betty (S03E14); they both blew me away (I almost cried). This little exchange between Mark and Wilhemina (Ugly Betty) was really awesome. I guess you have to know the characters, their personalities and what they are referring to, to understand the significance, but anyway:

Mark: May I say something, friend to friend?
Wilhemina: No.
Mark: Man to woman?
Wilhemina: (derisively) Oh, god, no.
Mark: Employee to employer?
Wilhemina: (exasperated) What is it, Mark?
Mark: Waiting for someone else to say 'I love you' first doesn't mean you're more powerful. It just means you're afraid.
Sam and I had a conversation about the exact same thing a couple of weeks ago. I told him I thought if you were the first to say 'I love you' to somebody, you automatically give the other person the upper hand, i.e. more power. Sam thought it was a crock of bullshit. He didn't think it would give the other person more power. I don't know. It all sounds like a game, and it shouldn't be. I don't play games but sometimes I create them in my head without really meaning to. But I do think that by being the first to admit your feelings, you come out of it holding the short straw. That is unless it is reciprocated straight away, in which case the power is evenly distributed. I don't know why power is even an issue, or where it comes into the picture. I'm not sure what kind of power I'm referring to either. What I mean is that if you're the first one to admit it, you make yourself vulnerable, and the other person is neither obliged to say it back, nor even feel the same way. It's the fear of unrequited love and fear of rejection that makes us think it's some sort of game of power. It's not until you reach unconditional love that the fear of unrequited love disappears and you love the other person irrespective of how they feel towards you. It's kind of retarded.

By the way, what's all this bullshit about how love hurts. I was thinking today that love shouldn't hurt. If it does, it's probably not worth your time. And if you love somebody unconditionally, it shouldn't hurt. As I said in the previous paragraph, unconditional love is when there are no conditions and the love doesn't have to be returned for you to love them, therefore it shouldn't hurt because you are supposed to be happy for them no matter what, and you're supposed to be altruistic/selfless about it. But of course it still hurts. We're only human.

I really don't get us.

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