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Today I decided that I should stop being too curious for my own good. More correctly, I should stop worrying and caring about things that aren't any of my business. I can't control anyone else, and I definately wouldn't want to. I've found in life that the people you care most about are the people who can hurt you the most. I guess it makes sense, because you spend the extra effort caring about them. I'm starting to wonder if it hurts more thinking that, in some way, they PLANNED to hurt me, or if they did it out of a sheer lack of thought. Is it better to think that people forget you or that they're vengeful towards you? Someone once told me that things affect me more because I am more aware and care more about them. It seems ironic that people can be so fast to forget things they've said. It makes everything in life seem so futile. Again, it's just none of my fucking business, is it? Why the fuck should it be, and why the fuck should I care? Obviously I shouldn't, because all it does is get me hurt. I should just stop caring, but I can't. I don't want to, and that may be what hurts the most.