When words are a means to express... it's hard to pick and choose what they'll be when you have such specific emotions. Perhaps they'll come back to you eventually???
But, at least at this moment in time, you know you had'em. Whether they be wonderful or not.
I always try and explain things like that as best as I can... and only hint towards it. BUT, at least I tried to explain it.
Is it not refreshing tho??? That you know what you love and hate in such details already? Others may not know who you are and what you like... but you know. That has to aid you somehow in the future.
you're exactly right. you see, i could never write all that down by myself. you speak words of truth. that deserves to be quoted! and yes. it is refreshing. you are absolutely correct.
It's kinda weird. For, the amount of thinking that it takes to decide if you are FOR or AGAINST something is relatively little. Yet, it's always hard to get yourself to think because what it takes to take your mind off lil mindnumbing distractions throughout the day. The fact still remands, it wouldn't take too long, in comparison to how old we are, to get to know ourselves and who we are. So, whenever I find someone who has done enough thinking to know where they lay, I really respect that. When I meet someone who is undecided about something... Kinda... annoying. For, it takes about 5 minutes to think it out. SO, knowing you're content with yourself. Yay! An intellectual I'll call you.
This is one of the weird things I think about from day to day. Tisk tisk.
yes! it's not fair. you're right, it only takes 5 minutes and yet i spend all day, EVERY day just sitting, thinking. i am always in thought. that's why i never get enough sleep. like today on the plane, i bought that sudoku book but i did like, two puzzle and the rest of the flight i was jotting down all my thoughts in the cracks and corners of the pages. it's really hard to read, but y'know, i hate happy-go-lucky people. i hate sounding like a hallmark card, but everyone truly is unique and hopefully every person can "find" themselves. i suppose.
Everything is a debate in a way. I LOVE it. Just to find a position to debate, YOU personally have to have an internal debate with yourself to find what you think
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i love being contemplative, and i hate it at the same time. it's torture sometimes. actually, most times. because just when i think i've got everything figured out for the time being, i don't. i have a reality check where my position in life diminishes so much. suddenly i fall from the independent being of supremacy i was, to just a stupid little girl. BUT if i didn't think this way, it wouldn't be me. i've learned to embrace the fact that i will probably never be satisfied.
sleep is a waste of time. someone could be doing something great. just think how much more we could accomplish if we didnt' have to sleep.
eggs are not actually animals. i don't feel guilty eating them. it's just like milk. i'm not ACTUALLY eating any part of an animal, just what it produces. however gelatin IS part of an animal. gelatin makes me feel wiggy inside...fat! how can people STAND it?
EXACTLY!!!!! Eggs are considered a BY-PRODUCT just like milk! It's perfect sense. It's kinda like when people make fun of vegetarians for some simplistic joy where everyone laughs with them. BUT, when they start to question and poke, why... why... why
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i could literally talk about this for hours, but i'll save you the trouble of typing so much. i'm sorry for dragging you into this :] but it seems that you understand how i feel and that's rare! the inner works of sammy's busy brain is perplexing. as i said before, jordynne falls asleep or tells me to be quiet. it's quite annoying actually. you blow me away, mikey, you simply do.
Haha.... majority of the time things are always complex. But, for the instant you find something out, and for a instant I totally understand you. things are simple again! Yay! Haha. it goes complex to simple. In the same frame of mind.
It's like everything has a natural order of working out eventually. It's just patience and pushing foward that determines how soon you get there. And knowing, eventually things can turn complex again with new variables. There is order in disorder, and disorder in order. Ever developing. BUT, that's another topic I have worked out from a movie.
I love typing, so no worries. haha. And I could talk about this for hours as well. :) :) :) I'm glad we understand each other dear sammy! When we are silent, we are still working diligently. Same wavelength.
Haha. Jordy the sister. Awwww. I haven't witnessed your guys interactions much at all. Kinda sad. BUT, it leaves something for the future!!!
But, at least at this moment in time, you know you had'em. Whether they be wonderful or not.
I always try and explain things like that as best as I can... and only hint towards it. BUT, at least I tried to explain it.
Is it not refreshing tho??? That you know what you love and hate in such details already? Others may not know who you are and what you like... but you know. That has to aid you somehow in the future.
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So, whenever I find someone who has done enough thinking to know where they lay, I really respect that. When I meet someone who is undecided about something... Kinda... annoying. For, it takes about 5 minutes to think it out.
SO, knowing you're content with yourself. Yay! An intellectual I'll call you.
This is one of the weird things I think about from day to day. Tisk tisk.
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hmm. yea. so i kinda like to debate on things...
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BUT if i didn't think this way, it wouldn't be me. i've learned to embrace the fact that i will probably never be satisfied.
sleep is a waste of time. someone could be doing something great. just think how much more we could accomplish if we didnt' have to sleep.
eggs are not actually animals. i don't feel guilty eating them. it's just like milk. i'm not ACTUALLY eating any part of an animal, just what it produces. however gelatin IS part of an animal. gelatin makes me feel wiggy inside...fat! how can people STAND it?
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you blow me away, mikey, you simply do.
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It's like everything has a natural order of working out eventually. It's just patience and pushing foward that determines how soon you get there. And knowing, eventually things can turn complex again with new variables.
There is order in disorder, and disorder in order. Ever developing. BUT, that's another topic I have worked out from a movie.
I love typing, so no worries. haha. And I could talk about this for hours as well. :) :) :)
I'm glad we understand each other dear sammy! When we are silent, we are still working diligently. Same wavelength.
Haha. Jordy the sister. Awwww. I haven't witnessed your guys interactions much at all. Kinda sad. BUT, it leaves something for the future!!!
You blow my mind dear Sammy!
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