Sitting With An Idea And Tarot Cards
Today's Gratitude:
1) We didn't get the severe storm that was in the northern part of the county and heading south. We just got heavy rain.
2) I can still run. (Mom's door blew open again, in the middle of a said rain storm. I ran over to her house to pull the door closed.)
3) I have another 4x8 piece of my ceiling sheet rocked
4) Spirit spoke to me today and reminded me of what I'd wanted to be when I moved to the Ozarks
5) Mom said that she was better off since I moved her down here with me even though none of the leaks in her house we thought were fixed were and we have so much work to do....
I've been so exhausted mentally and physically and sick (sinus foo and heart sick) the last couple of days that I haven't gotten much done. Filled out some paperwork and made some reports today that needed to be done. Steve saw how badly I was heart sick and he came and put up more of the ceiling sheet rock in my office to cheer me. We both decided the blue isn't going to work. I'm going to go lighter to match the light blue on the spaceships on my ceiling fan blades, I think...
However, a little bird of an idea popped into my head about what I wanted to do when I moved to the Ozarks, and I looked at the mind map I put on big poster board that's on my closet door here in the bedroom (since I spend my evenings in the bedroom with the laptop and the kitties), and realized that yes, this big idea that I'd had all those months (over a year ago now) fits in with the big mind map in an elevated way, AND, one of the blessings of the former housemates is that I see what I DON'T want in a church. I am sitting with the idea and know exactly how it will branch off and tie back into something I was trying to do last year, but like many things finding that I didn't quite have their final form. I'm still not sure what the final form will be for this, but the seed has sprouted and borne fruit in a most wonderful way.
I did a tarot reading on it.
10 of rods reversed - If I'm going to do it, do it right! Don't shirk my duties!
5 of rods - You know you're going to have some battles. The former housemates who are clergy and the victim-shaming Archpriestess of the church will NOT be happy if you do this... (to which I say fuck 'em)
8 of cups - You are setting out on your own spiritual quest here, chick. You're walking away from the easy, already set up, already promised clergy path track that was promised to you by the former housemates. Know that you are on your own road.
Yeah, I'm rockin' cool with that and feeling like I'm finding my mojo again. That's what I told my sweetie. That I know I am the Magician Card. I have the power in me to do this, to make this life exactly what I want, I just need to find it again.
In a quiet moment, I think I found it.... Yeah, I think I did.... Because I see the entire wheel now, and it's beautiful.
1) We didn't get the severe storm that was in the northern part of the county and heading south. We just got heavy rain.
2) I can still run. (Mom's door blew open again, in the middle of a said rain storm. I ran over to her house to pull the door closed.)
3) I have another 4x8 piece of my ceiling sheet rocked
4) Spirit spoke to me today and reminded me of what I'd wanted to be when I moved to the Ozarks
5) Mom said that she was better off since I moved her down here with me even though none of the leaks in her house we thought were fixed were and we have so much work to do....
I've been so exhausted mentally and physically and sick (sinus foo and heart sick) the last couple of days that I haven't gotten much done. Filled out some paperwork and made some reports today that needed to be done. Steve saw how badly I was heart sick and he came and put up more of the ceiling sheet rock in my office to cheer me. We both decided the blue isn't going to work. I'm going to go lighter to match the light blue on the spaceships on my ceiling fan blades, I think...
However, a little bird of an idea popped into my head about what I wanted to do when I moved to the Ozarks, and I looked at the mind map I put on big poster board that's on my closet door here in the bedroom (since I spend my evenings in the bedroom with the laptop and the kitties), and realized that yes, this big idea that I'd had all those months (over a year ago now) fits in with the big mind map in an elevated way, AND, one of the blessings of the former housemates is that I see what I DON'T want in a church. I am sitting with the idea and know exactly how it will branch off and tie back into something I was trying to do last year, but like many things finding that I didn't quite have their final form. I'm still not sure what the final form will be for this, but the seed has sprouted and borne fruit in a most wonderful way.
I did a tarot reading on it.
10 of rods reversed - If I'm going to do it, do it right! Don't shirk my duties!
5 of rods - You know you're going to have some battles. The former housemates who are clergy and the victim-shaming Archpriestess of the church will NOT be happy if you do this... (to which I say fuck 'em)
8 of cups - You are setting out on your own spiritual quest here, chick. You're walking away from the easy, already set up, already promised clergy path track that was promised to you by the former housemates. Know that you are on your own road.
Yeah, I'm rockin' cool with that and feeling like I'm finding my mojo again. That's what I told my sweetie. That I know I am the Magician Card. I have the power in me to do this, to make this life exactly what I want, I just need to find it again.
In a quiet moment, I think I found it.... Yeah, I think I did.... Because I see the entire wheel now, and it's beautiful.